"Hey Daddy. I know. it been a while. I got a job at a place called Riverside. Nice place. Please say hi to Gene for me. Love you "
Stephen Michael Young, 27, of 346 Stratofortress, Gwinn, formerly of Dale City, Virginia died Monday, May 13 at his home.
Michael was born July 15, 1974 in Fort Belvoir, Virginia the son of Stephen Murphy Young and Betty Allen.
Michael was a 1991 graduate of Osbourn Park High School and had been pursuing a degree in education at Northern Michigan University. He also was employed with Pomps Tire in Marquette. Michael enjoyed hunting, fishing, dogs, cars, computers, riding Harley Davidson motorcycles and was a fan of NASCAR and the Detroit Red Wings.
Michael is survived by his parents, Stephen M. (Helen) Young of San Antonio, TX and Betty (Ken) Bartlett of Fredericksburg, VA; children, Noah Dylan and Avery Hunter; maternal grandparents, Ryland and Audrey Allen of Dale City, VA; his fiancee, Christina Woodring of Skandia; and several aunts, uncles and cousins. A daughter, Audrey and his paternal grandparents, Robert A. and Doris H. Young preceded him in death.
A memorial service will be held on Wednesday, May 22, 2002 in the Canale-Tonella Funeral Home in Marquette, MI at 11 a.m. with the Rev. Mac Woody officiating. A service will also be held on Saturday, May 25, 2002 in the Kings Highway Baptist Church in Fredericksburg, VA at 11 a.m. with the Rev. Willis Dempsey and Rev. Ron Thayer officiating. The family requests those attending the services to wear casual attire.
In lieu of flowers, those wishing to make a memorial contribution are kindly asked to consider the Alzheimers Association or the American Heart Association.
"Hey Daddy. I know. it been a while. I got a job at a place called Riverside. Nice place. Please say hi to Gene for me. Love you "
"Hey dad it Noah your son. I love you and miss you. I been doing good "
"PS. It hard not having you around "
"Hey Dad. It?s Noah your son. I am well. I like 70?s music, and a artist named Upchurch. I live in a group home in Matthews Virginia. Miss you "
"Mikie I can?t even believe how wonderful it feels to finally have Avery reach out to me! He looks so cute he looks just like you!? He turned 18 on the 19th that?s so hard to believe! He likes a lot of the things you do which is awesome! I love you and miss you and wish "
"It has been years since I have posted on this memory page. There is not a day that goes by that I haven't thought about my precious son! I have never hurt so much in my whole life as I have since you went tio be with with the Lord. My son you are my life there is a void in my heart and life that can never be filled! They say the end times are coming...the signs and destruction in this world are begining to be happening as the chapher of Revelation says it would! I will be so happy when that day comes. I will get to see the one who died for me but I will also rejoice I will be with my baby boy for enernity!!! You were the sunshine of my life!!!!"
"Wow it has been a long time since I have written...Time goes by can you believe Kevin is 7 about to turn 8:) I miss you my friend and think about you often."
"Thinking of you. Missing my friend."
"Hey Mikie, sitting here with momma and pop listening to a band and thinking of you miss you bunches.. Twma Love Cyndi lou who And mommy loves you say hi to rara and nelldie and aubrey and autumn, love to all our angels watching over us."
"Thinking of you on this day! Missing my friend. Hugs and Kisses~ Mickey"
"Thinking about you and how you impacted alot of lives. Loving you always Til we meet again Cyndi-Lou"
"Thinking of you today. : )"
"NOYB-You are so very right! I've thought the same for quite some time and I'm glad someone finally said so! It's funny how people get on here and post these messages, like they really knew Mike. Many of them haven't talked to him in years, and he never talked about them himself, yet they think they made some impact on his life....lol Well, ok, a couple did, and they are what drove him over the edge. Us that were around him, knew who he loved and cared about, just remember that. And I know he is in heaven watching over us."
"Hi Mike, Yes Yes I know it has been awhile since I last wrote and I am sorry. Not a day goes by that I do not think of you. Jon-Michol is getting ready to start 9th grade, yes I said 9th grade. He will do awesome I know. I am now an Certified LPN and looking for work. Cancer is in remission, my other 4 are doing well and doing their jobs of driving me batty. lol Give Ry Ry my love and I miss you both. Hugs and kiss. Till we meet again.. Love Cyndi"
"NOYB- What are you doing on the guest book entry? The people that put their thoughts and love on these pages know that Mike has been gone for 7 years. They are dealing with there sorrow and grief how they see fit.Why did you bother to even look or write. People who use this are still grieving. GIVE THEM A BREAK!!!! It may take some time for some. Some people just dont get over someone they love sooo fast. I dont see this as a forum. I see all the love and sadness of a special someone we all lost. Next time... Keep your thoughts to yourself."
"Mikey-Just wanted to wish you a Happy 35th Birthday. I love and miss you like crazy. Hugs and kisses- Mickey"
"Since this has become a public forum, I just wanted to let everyone know that Mike has not been celebrating birthdays for the last 7 years...Also, to the best of my knowledge, he is also not using the internet any longer. I do believe, however, that he can hear our thoughts and prayers. Just some food for thought ;)"
"July 15th 2009 HAPPY 35th BIRTHDAY!!! Wow can you belive that we used to talk about getting to this age and saying that we would be soooo old? I wanted to update you about all the court stuff well as you saw I got a new lawyer and he seems to be really good so I know you'll be there when that time comes and that it will work out it is just hard now. Anyways enough with the HUGE DRAMA!! I have started dating a new man and he is great we do alot of things together and as you have probeley seen and haerd we talk of you often which gets me to my next subject. I just wanted to let you know that not a day goes by that I don't think about you or wonder what you are doing or thinking!! I miss you soooooo much and will always love you. Well I will write back soon.Please take care of Ry-Ry and my loved ones that are up in Heaven.Thanx. I LOVE YA Stephanie"
"Hi Mike- Just letting you know that Noah is getting soooooo big. Can you belive its been almost 10 years since he was born? Its almost like yesterday. He is so smart. He has passed all his state testing with 100% in all catagories. He is amazing. He asks about you once in awhile. I just tell him you are up in heaven with Audrey and one day we will all be seeing each other some day. He is learning so much about God and he loves his bible books. He will take after your mom and dad for sure. He said the other day that he wants to be a preacher. Yeah.... Our boy!!! Go figure. All is well with my family. Mel is getting married in June and everyone is really looking forward to that. We miss you. Talk to you soon. Hugs and kisses- Mickey"
"I just wanted to express my deepest sympathies for the family of Stephen. May you all have the strength and courage to carry on and may precious memories help you though your grief. May god bless each of you. Our prayers are with you. Gwen, Lindsay and Chris Neira"
"My deepest sympathy for this tragic loss."
"My condolences to the family. Mike was always upbeat and kept the conversation going whenever we were all together."
"My sympathies to you and your family."
"Death is always painful, but even more so when it takes our young family members. Please accept my sincere condolences. God Bless Stephen and his family. Tony Bellotte Vice President ACS Defense Columbia, Maryland."
"im sad to hear about the loss of michael. i remeber when we used to go out into my yard and chase each other and horse around. i will miss him a lot."
"Condolences for the Young family"
"May God be with you all through this loss. I love you all. Helen"
"My deepest sympathies for your loss of your loved one. The family should be very proud to have had a son that was living and pursuing his dreams. God Be With You and Your family during this time of sorrow. With Love, Belinda Smith & family"
"I'm so sorry for your loss. May God be with you during your time of sorrow. Even though Helen is unable to be there, her heart is there with all of you and we in San Antonio are here for her. God bless all of you. Robin Nicolai"
"This is a devastating loss for all of us that loved Michael. To Betty, Kenny & Steve we can only imagine your pain. To Noah & Avery and their families remember we love you and that you always have a 'home' in Virginia too!"
"God bless you & bring you peace & comfort as you mourn the loss of your beloved son"
"Helen and Steve--You are in my prayers during this very difficult time in your lives. Liz Crissey"
"HELEN & STEVE, SO VERY SORRY TO HEAR OF YOUR LOSS. MY THOUGHTS & PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU DURING THIS TRYING TIME. BECKY CURLESS"
"Words cannot express the loss we know you must feel. There is really nothing anyone can say that will make it better at this time, we can only hope that with time your pain will ease and only fond memories will remain. Know that our hearts and prayers are with you and the family. Beverley & Arthur Robinson friends of Steve & Helen Young"
"My thoughts and prayers are with all of you. Penny Lamond, close friend of Helen Young in San Antonio"
"Deepest sympathy."
"I'm so sorry to hear of the loss of your son. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers at this most difficult time."
"My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. May God Bless You, Melida Moncus"
"Steve, I pray that God be with you and your family during these times of sorrow. Please be patient as God will show you that time will heal all pain. I'll keep you and your family in my prayers and may God bless your son's soul and let him rest in peace. Regina"
"We all extend our sympathy and kee you in our prayers."
"Steve & Helen, here at Levi Strauss & Co. the PSH department sends you our deepest sympathy. Our paryers be with you and your family. Your friend Mary Armijo & Co-workers"
"Steve, My thoughts and prayers are with you during this tragic time. Please know that we care about you and hope that there's some way that we can help you. I pray that God will provide you strength and comfort in dealing with the loss of your son. Ronnie"
"Please accept the deepest sympathy from all your ACS family."
"My condolences to you and your entire family. I will keep your son in my prayers. Daniel"
"I remember when Mike would come over and wresle with me and show me all the moves he knew. He always swung me around by my stomach until I was dizzy. He was so nice and a great person . I am so sorry Betty and Kenny..."
"Our Thoughts and Prayers are with you. God Bless."
"We are truley going to miss Mikes warm smile and funny personality. No matter how bad our day was he always made us smile. God Bless"
"We are so sorry for your loss of your son. We love you."
"Our thoughts and prayers are with you Betty and ken. God Bless."
"You and your family are in all our hearts and prayers. We love you. Betty and family"
"Thinking of you Betty and Ken. God bless you and help you through this. Lula and Marty."
"Our daily thoughts and prayers are with you. We will never forget Mikes sense of humor, his warm smile and the compassion he had for others. We pray God will give you peace, strength and comfort in this very difficult time."
"I met Michael when I was 15 he and I hit it off right away. We dated so many times that when we were a couple and people asked how long we'd been together we would say just condense it into any 1&1/2 to 2 year time span you want cause we were never really sure how many times or how long we dated. He became one of those people in my life that no matter how angry he made me I could not stay mad for long. I will always remember his beautiful blue eyes and that long dark hair he had when we met. Michael I LOVE YOU you will be some the most precious memories that I have. Thanks for loving me no matter what. "Against All Odds" Suzanne Mom & Dad: I know you were one of the few who know how I felt for Michael, I just hope you know my love for him extends to you as well. I loved all 3 of you from the moment I laid eyes on you. I pray everyday that some understanding of why he had to leave so soon comes. I will always be here no matter what you need, so plaese do NOT hesitate to ask. I know I will see him at heavens gates waiting to take me to the throne of God. Please take care and remember I will always love you. Your "BABY GIRL""
"My condolences for the Young family."
"Steve and Helen Please accept our sincere condolences from my entire family. We pray that God will grant you peace through this ordeal."
"I will always remember the good times I shared with "Mike"....from the hot air balloon ride we went on, to the hockeygame at Joe Louis Arena. My sympathies go out to his family, his fiance, and his new son Avery. May God be with you all at his time in your life...and always David Seekell"
"We are praying for you and we want you to know that we love you so much. We can never express to you the sorrow we feel. Our Lord is good and He knows us best. Much love Tom and Iris"
"To Betty Jean, Kenny and Steve and Helen, You are all in our thoughts and prayers at this tragic time. Aunt Ruby, Uncle Billy and Linda Raborn"
"Sorry about your loss. Our thoughts and prayers are with you. Kay, Larry ,Karen & Amy Thompson"
"Our prayers are with you and your family."
"BETTY AND KENNY, WE LOVE YOU! MICHAEL LIVES ON IN THE FACES OF HIS CHILDREN. GOD BE WITH YOU AND YOUR FAMILY. MICHAEL IS SAFE IN THE ARMS OF OUR LORD. WE WILL SEE HIM AGAIN. VIVIAN AND DON"
"We will keep you all in our prayers and that time will heal your great loss. With deepest sympathy to Mike's parents, step parents, children and fiance. Cathy Sonny's sister (Kenny)"
"My prayers are with this family. Sincerely, Becky Steinberger"
"I am so honored to had the opportunity to know Mike. Mike & I shared many of laughs & good times together from the "Hot Air Jubilee" in Jackson to our visits to Cabellas, I will always have fond memories of Mike. My deepest sympathy to Christina & Avery, The Woodring family, Noah, Kenny & Betty, Steve & Helen. You will be in my thoughts & prayers forever. Uncle Chad"
"Avery and I miss you more than you'll ever know. We love you and always will! Yours forever, Christina"
"To Christina and Avery Know that we love you. We are here to support you. We are truly sorry for your loss. Love Mom and Dad"
"Steve and Helen We just want to let you know that we are sorry for your loss. We are sharing your grief. With deepest sympathy, Ray and Lori"
"Kenny and Betty We want you to know that we are sorry for your loss. You are in our thoughts and prayers. With deepest sympathy, Ray and Lori"
"Dear Mike, I will always remember all the times we shared together, most of them were fun! Like the hockey games, class, Jubilee, etc. I wish that God did not take you so soon because you left a lot of people who love and will miss you, especially your family from Skandia(Chrissy, Avery, Me, Mom, Dad, And Grandma, and Grandpa). Even though you are gone none of us will ever forget you and the times we've shared. Until I see you again...Goodbye and I do love you. Love, Your Sis Marissa Christina and Avery, I just want to also write you a little note to tell you how very sorry I am that this had to happen. I will ALWAYS be there for both of you and I love you both Very much, and I know Mike did too. Love, Your sis, Marissa"
"Our deepest sympathy and prayers that God will give strength to the family in this time of sorrow."
"Kenny and Betty, Our thoughts and prayers are with you. We pray that God will give you strength during this time of sorrow. With deepest sympathy, Roger and Sue"
"My Dearest Michael, My fondest memory of you was the second you were born, since that time there have been many others. You were & still are my everything, I have so many things I could write in here but I know you know without a doubt your mommy loved you more than life itself, I just think God you are in Heaven with our Lord and Savior if I didn't have that as a parent I know I would of felt like I failed you. I'm so glad that we didn't let pride get the better of us and we took that walk down the aisle & accepted Jesus in our heart. remember this baby boy I'll love you forever, I'll like you for always, As long as I'm living my baby you'll be, I promise this your baby boys Noah & Hunter will be loved by me and probally just as spoiled as you were. All My Love till we meet high on that mountain. Mommy"
"Dear Mike, I just pray that you knew in your heart how much you ment to me. Although your mom and I tried to have a baby brother or sister for you we were never able to. I guess the LORD had a different plan for us. Mike I make you a promise to always take care of your mom and to never hurt her again like I had in the past. You were so loved in this family and your mom could think that you could do no wrong. I know now more then ever how much you ment to us. Your mom and I will look out for your boys as you are nolonger here physicaly, but I know that you are in each of our thoughts and hearts. Boy you had so much going for you and in so short a few years you were here you touched so many people and their hearts . You filled those people hearts with your love and kindness. Boy you have left a lot of grieving hearts with your parting. I pray that your memories will live on in those hearts that loved you so much. Mike I love you so much it hurts each time I think of you. I know you were not my son by blood but you will always be my son no matter what anyone says. I just hope that I was a good enough of a dad for you. Mike you brought so much joy to me threw the good times and the bad. I believe you would have been a great teacher for all the kids that you could have had in your classes. Boy I really miss you and I pray that I can be strong for your mom. Oh for I miss your voice and your ways, I can hear you pick up the phone and ask to speak to your mom . I just wish this was another one of your jokes that you would say " I got you all" I wouldnt know what to do to hug you or kick your butt but I think I would hold you and never let you go. Oh I wish you were here. I LOVE YOU BOY & I WILL MISS YOU. I Will continue to witness for you because I know that there are loved ones that yoo want in heaven with us and your friends. I just pray that if there are any that read this & that are not sure of their salvation that they will call me or e-mail me so that I can tell them about our savior Jesus Christ and how they can be sure to see you again. Well boy till I see you over there dont cause to many problems for the LORD And watch out for your mom and I as we ride to glorify our LORD and your parting from us. Love Pop John 3:16 For GOD so loved the world that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. I pray that my sons death does not go in vein that all that read this will accept GODS free gift of everlasting life. PS: Boy you were a great dad and I know that you would have raised your boys the same way your mom and I raised you."
"We were deeply saddened to hear about your son. We have you in our prayers. We will be out of town and will not be able to attend the services to be held in Virginia. God bless you both."
"To Michael's parents: My deepest sympathy. I will never forget Mike. We got along very well. I will keep Michael and all of his parents in my prayers for quite awhile. May God be with you all during this difficult time. Cindy Pinkney (formerly Bouford)"
"Our Sincere Sympathy to All of the Family! You are in Our Thoughts and Prayers!"
"I would like to thank everyone for the support they provided to us during this tragedy. Your prayers and wishes have greatly aided us in managing our grief, and we are proud to have you as friends. I am deeply indebted, as I cannot begin to describe the despair I have been going through during this ordeal. Michael, my only son, was a free spirit. He was never afraid to speak out when he had something on his mind, although sometimes we would have preferred a little fear. He was very intelligent, and was the one you could count on to think outside the box. Although he was never what you would consider a model student in school, he still managed to complete his requirements and graduate one year early. Our sadness at his passing was compounded by the fact that his second son, Avery Hunter, had just joined him in this world (4/19/2002), only to have his father pass on to the next. I am very proud of my son, and love him more than I could ever describe. My greatest sadness is all of the time I wont be able to spend with him. If you have love ones that you havent talked to in a while, or told you love them, or told them how important they are to you, Id recommend taking the time as soon and frequently as possible. We dont know for whom the bell tolls, or when, and regrets about things we could have, would have, or should have done build their own very personal hell. Mike would have been 28 years old this July. Again my deepest gratitude for your prayers and support."
"We are praying for God's peace and comfort. Barry & Kathy Solid Rock Riders"
"I was very saddened to hear of Michael's passing. Thank the Lord that he was a born again Christian. We know that he is safe and happy in his new life. My heart goes out to all his family and friends. God Bless you all. Love, Dee"
"Betty & Kenny - Just want to let you know that you are in our Prayers daily. We will always remember the good times we spent with Michael and especially those special times like Halloween. All Our Love and May God Be with you both."
"Peace and Love to the family. I have not seen Mike since his Grandmom Doris passed over. I know they are together. May the angels take away your grief!"
"Christina Marie, Through our loss of Mike we have been reminded again how precious life is. Time will help heal the pain but cant erase the memories. "Grandpa Dave" always appreciated Mike being such a good listner to his quite lengthy stories. His favorite memory, which still makes him laugh is of Mike in the coonskin hat. My favorite memories are your trips to Jackson especially the suprise visit on Christmas night , it meant so much to me !, he so loved Jackson, the food, our bulldogs & just being here. Everytime we see our beautiful grandson Avery Hunter we will again have memories & be thankful for Micheals life. My love to you & Avery, May god watch over you both. Love G pa & G ma Seekell"
"Deepest sympathies to Mike's family. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Mike's Cousin, Crissy"
"I Was just told of Michael's passing yesterday and I am so very devestated over his loss. He was the greatest friend that a girl could ask for. He could always make me laugh, comfort me in my time of need but most of all love me for me.I am so sorry to my MOMMY and DADDY that this happend my prayers and thoughts are always with you. I LOVE YOU ALL Your Stephanie My Dearest Michael, Your passing is very hard on me.I will never forget the love and life that you brought to me. I miss you so much. You will always be in my heart and soul FOREVER. I LOVE YOU MIKE. ALL MY LOVE, Stephanie"
"Micheal and I had the kind of friendship where now matter how long we were apart,when we met agan it was as if no time has past. With Micheal it was hard to ever stay mad at him long...He was also devoted to his mother ,she was his world, and anyone who every dated him was told that they would have to share him with mom. I will always remember the moment when he held my oldest son Jon Michol and called him his son.. Micheal was an angel amoung men and he will be sorley missed. I LOVE YOU..UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.. Micheal: Suzanne and I want to thank you for bringing us together, although it sadden us how we were brought together. We promise you that we will take care of each other as you would have us. We'll love and miss you forever..... Betty and Kenny, I will always be here for you.. I love you."
"To Betty, Kenny and your Family, I Know how much Mikie ment to you.Our thoughts and our prayers are with all of you. Love, Pat and Gene"
"Christina - I am so sorry to hear about your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your new little baby. Hang in there. It will take time, but, you can get through this."
"Christina & Avery I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I have heard so much about both of you from your family that I feel like I know you. I pray that God touches both of your hearts and souls as you deal with your loss. If you ever need anything please feel free to contact your hot air balloon friends."
"Mike was a nice, caring, fun person to be around. He will always remain in my memory that way."
"Michael, Today is July 4th this is your Holiday Baby Boy. I know tonight you'll be looking down @ the fireworks enjoying them all. I Love You & Miss You so much it hurts, life will never be the same and even tho you've left us with two beautiful grandsons to love & spoil it's just not the same! You have left such a great void in my life. As you can see we're taking care of Quantico for you and we'll do our best with taking care & loving both the boys & Chris. I would give anything to be with you this 4th of July and have a true celebration!!! Love You Forever! Mommy"
"Mike, You always thanked me for giving you the most beautiful baby boy in the world, but I never got the chance to do the same for you. If it weren't for you, there would be no Avery, and I am forever grateful. You were right when you said that he is the best thing you've ever done in your life; he's the best thing both of us ever did. I love you and miss you very much. This song is for you honey: Looking back on the memory of The dance we shared 'neath the stars alone For a moment, all the world was right How could I have known that you'd ever say goodbye And now I'm glad I didn't know The way it all would end, the way it all would go Our lives are better left to chance, I could have missed the pain But I'd of had to miss the dance Holding you, I held everything For a moment, wasn't I a king But if I'd only known how the king would fall Hey, who's to say, you know, I might have chanced it all Yes, my life is better left to chance I could have missed the pain, but I'd of had to miss the dance (Garth Brooks)"
"MIKIEE, HELLO MY BABY BOY, AROUND THIS HOUR 28 YEARS AGO I WAS THE HAPPIEST PERSON ALIVE. MY BABY YOU WERE THE REASON.. NOW 28 YEARS LATER THIS IS THE SADDEST DAY. I KNOW THEY SAY WE ARE TO CELEBRATE TODAY BECAUSE OF THE TIME WE HAD TOGETHER BUT I'M HAVING A HARD TIME WITH THAT. I READ CHRIS'S LETTER TO YOU AND I COULDN'T HELP BUT AGREE AVERY IS ONE OF THE BEST THINGS YOU'VE EVER DONE! HIM AND NOAH ARE ALL I HAVE LEFT OF THE BEST THING IN MY LIFE SO I KNOW HOW THE BOTH OF YOU FEEL AND I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I TOO WANT TO THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME BOTH BOYS, I KNOW NOAH WILL HAVE A SPECIAL PLACE IN MY HEART ALWAYS AND AVERY WAS THE LAST OF YOU, SO YOU KNOW HE'S GOING TO BE SPOILED ROTTEN JUST LIKE YOU. HE'S A BEAUITFUL BABY AND YOU HAVE EVERY RIGHT TO BE PROUD OF HIM. AND I WANT TO THANK CHRIS FOR LOVING YOU AND GIVING US AVERY. SO CHRIS THANKS FOR THE DANCE. I KNEW THE MINUTE I FOUND OUT I WAS GOING TO HAVE A BABY IT WAS A BOY THEY COULDN'T OF PAID ME TO HAVE A GIRL! I KNEW YOU WERE SPECIAL AND ALWAYS WILL BE TO YOUR MOMMY, WHEN EVERYONE ELSE SAID YOU WERE BAD I ALWAYS SAID YOU WERE MY LITTLE ANGEL NOW YOU'RE MY SPECAIL ANGEL !!!!! I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU WITH ALL MY HEART. HAPPY BIRHTDAY MY BABY BOY. MOMMY"
"Hey Boy! I just wanted to wish you a happy birthday today, you must be so happy now where you are. I know you have nomore saddness in your heart. I just wish you were here so I could rap my arms around you and get my hug and kiss from you. I know that is one thing I will never forget that you were never ashamed of like most kids your age. I wish that we could have talked more about some things there seems to be so many things that go thru my mind each day that I wish we could have done together. I never got to go hunting with you but I pray that when I get home that you will have a great hunting trip planned for me. Boy you dont know how much of a hole that you have left in moms and my heart. I am trying to stay strong for your mom, but it has been so hard for me. I dont know what I can do to help take the pain from her heart, I dont care about mine anymore I just want to get your mom happy like she was. I know that she will never forget you nor I. But it has been so hard to go on without you. Our friend Hillbilly has the same birthday as you do, I wish you could have met him you would have really liked him. If it hadnt been for him calling me and praying with me I dont think I would have been this strong, He is the closest person that I have for a friend now with the exception of your mom. I just pray that you might ask the LORD to help me in my battle with saten as he tries to confuse me and to take me away from our focus on the LORD. Well boy I know that you are busy with things that you have to do for the LORD but I will write again soon. LOVE & HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALWAYS your pop P.S. I sure miss your call and your voice with saying "HEY POP""
"My Dearest michael, HAPPY 28th BIRTHDAY!! In your memory for today and always I have lit a white candle for you.Boy do i miss hearing your voice and I miss you. I hope that you are celebrating up in heaven. May you always know that you are a great person. As I drove home I played you the song "FLY TO THE ANGELS". I LOVE YOU -Stephanie PS. TO MY MOMMY AND DADDY: I AM HERE FOR YOU ALL I DO NOT WANT YOU ALL TO GO THROUGH THIS ALONE. PLEASE CALL ME IF YOU NEED ME!! I LOVE YOU ALL, Stephanie"
"Hello Baby Boy, Well as you know today is Noah's Birthday! He's such a sweet boy just like his daddy, I can't believe he's 3 already. We just got pictures of you & I together when we were in MI last when you got hurt. The pictures are dark but... Anyway thanks for watching out for us, take care of your boys. Just remember We Love You and as long as I'm living your boys will know they had a loving daddy. I sent Noah a birthday card in your memory today I don't know if he'll get it or not, I guess time will tell. Are you looking down & laughing now that Quantico is in the house? I Love You Now & Forever !!!!"
"HEY BABY BOY, TODAY IS DADDY'S BIRTHDAY! NOT A HAPPY BIRTHDAY NOW THAT YOU'RE NOT HERE. WE HAVE CERTAINLY MISSED YOU THESE LAST FEW MONTHS THEY SAY YOU NEVER KNOW HOW MUCH YOU MISS SOMETHING TILL IT'S GONE, WELL I MISSED YOU EVERYDAY BUT I ALWAYS KNEW YOU WERE JUST A PHONE CALL AWAY,IT'S NOT THE SAME ANYMORE MY WHOLE LIFE IS SO DIFFERENT I WISH I COULD BE WITH YOU JUST TO LET YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH AND I'M SORRY IF I CAUSED YOU ANY PAIN OR HURT YOU IN ANY WAY. I GOT TO SEE OUR NOAH HE'S SUCH A BEAUTIFUL LITTLE BOY. BUT I WOULD OF GIVEN HIM UP IF I ONLY KNEW THE HURT I CAUSED YOU. BE WITH DADDY TODAY! I LOVE YOU SWEETHEART DON'T EVER FORGET THAT YOU ARE THE BEST THING THAT EVER HAPPENED TO ME AND I TRIED TO BE THE BEST MOM TO YOU I COULD! LOVE YOUR MOM FOREVER!!!!!"
"Hey Boy I was thinking about you again this morning and what a beautiful sunrise it was. I know that you are in charge of the clouds up there cause they sure seem like they are in a mess here lately. That's when I seen the double rainbow this morning and it wasnt even raining. I know you are watching over us, and I know that you have seen us with Mickey and Noah. I hope you understand that we love them both because they were part of your life and that all we have left of you are your boys. Mom and I will do anything we can to take care of them and pray that if Mickey wants to give Noah to us that we would raise him to know his Mom & Dad and what they have done for him. We would never not let Mick not see him because he has to know who his parents are. I have been asking the LORD that if it would be his will to let us have Noah that we would have the strengh to take care of him. I know you are laughing at me and my typing and that I have now started to go to the gym. But if I am going to be able to take care of your Mom and maybe the boys I have to get into shape as I get older. Well boy continue to watch over your Mom and I love you & miss you. Love always your Dad"
"Mike, How are you? Iam doing okay I guess.I still miss you so much it hurts.Your passing has left me feeling emtey at times. I know you are an Angel up in Heaven and that comforts me but, sometimes I still feel emtey.My memories are so very strong of you and the things that we shared.I still can't belive it happend it is like someone stole you away way to soon. Trying to make sense of why is always on my mind. Guilt too for not calling you for a while and not seeing you either makes me hurt.I know that you can see me but,I can't see your face,hear your voice I look only at the skies above me and know you're out there.Times that I cry to myself and just keep holding on to the memories. You are and will always stay in my heart until I get to see you again. I love Ya Stephanie"
"Mike, Well, not sure where to start other then to say Thanks again for giving me such a wonderful great nephew, Avery Hunter is the smartest well behaved handsome kid Ive ever seen. Christina is doing such a wonderful job raising him, he is the most spoiled kid Ive ever seen but you probally know that, all of us are doing our part in spoiling him, Christina,Lori & Ray, Marissa and all his family here in Jackson, we all love him very much !!!!. You have left some great memories and you will always be loved and missed by Christina and Avery, anyone who would ever doubt that are CRAZY!!.I only hope you can see what is going on and do what it takes to keep things under control. Thanks again for the memories. "Uncle Chad""
"Hey Mike, I just thought I would write and let you know that Jon Michol has some sort of traumatic brain injury it could of happened when he was born or when I fell down the steps when I was pregnant with him..But he has damage to the frontal lobes, which is the part of the brain that controls your emotions...He is doing well, however he is having a crisis everyday.... I'm sure you have know this already however, Mickey was in town with your Noah...Suzanne and I are both praying that she will allow Mom and Dad to raise him....Well we both miss you bunches you are always there in our thoughts...It's hard to believe that you have been gone for 4 months now...But I know you are watching over all of us... And I know you are already doing this but I wouldn't be me if I didn't say this, SO please watch over Mom and Noah especially!!!!! I'll write more later...I just heard a song and thought to write you... Your always in my heart and soul...I miss you Love for eternity, Cyndi"
"Michael, Happy Halloween My Baby Boy!! Well tonight is definely one of your nights, I hope you are having a scavenger hunt of you own tonight. I know how much you enjoyed them. I talked to Noah last night and he's going as Superman this year not what I would of picked but he's so cute he says up up & away! Not sure what Avery is going to be but I'm sure he'll be a cutie. Cindi said Adain is a elephant and Jon Michol as Dracula. Kim's family all went as the Scooby Do people. Suz and Cindi are doing well they go & check on Neldy & Ry Ry all the time and Wade's wife died and Suz stayed with Neldy and painted her fingernails for her. I'm sick and your dad is sick also. I miss you and I love you and there is still not a day that goes by that you aren't on my mind and in my heart. I ask GOD to make it not hurt so bad but so far it's not been an answered prayer yet. I know it's in his time. The motorcycle ministry is really taking off alot of people redeciating their life to the Lord and others getting saved truly some answered prayer there. Enjoy the night watch over your little ones!! All My Love, Mommie Just A Closer Walk With Thee"
"Hey Mikee, Happy Turkey Day!!!! I'm sure missing you today. I can't help but think I should be in Michigan with you & the boys today since I'm on vacation and this is what we'd planned, just know you are in my love thoughts & prayers today along with the boys. Today is the day we are to give Thanks & I'm Thankful you are with our Lord & Saviour and in a better place but it's hard on the love ones you you left behind but the good news is we'll be together again for ever. I'm Thankful for the two beautiful Grandsons you gave us they can't take your place in my heart no one can but there's room in there for the both of them!!! Look down & see RY Ry's got his turkey hat on for you. I Love You & Miss You Mommy"
"My deepest condolences to Christina and her son on their loss. Be strong..."
"Hey Mike, Just wanted to touch base and tell you I miss you, and I am thinking of you..Suz and I are really close and I am sure Your probably up there shaking your head at us..She has really been a wonderful friend and I thank you for bring us together..I just wish you were still here to see for yourself, and tease us that only you were allowed to get away with..But I know you are up there in a better place and your watching over all of us... miss you Hugs and love Cyn"
"Merry Christmas Mikie, Wow I can't believe it's Christmas time and you're not here physically, you'll always be in my heart, I know today is Our Saviours Birthday and because of him you are in Heaven today and that is truly something to celebrate. I love you and miss you so very much, I miss being up in the middle of the night and e-mailing you & you would be there now all I can do is e-mail your tribute page and express myself to you it hurts so much I never knew anything could hurt so bad. Look after your boys for me, I'll take care of them as much as I can I love them both I'm so glad you left us two beautiful boys to carry on where you left off, I only wish you didn't have to go. And I know God has a plan or he wouldn't taken you home. I Love You Forever!!! Mommy"
"Hey Son Well I dont know where to start, but this is finnally starting to hit me hard. My heart is hurting so bad at this time, I really miss you. Christmas is just another day for me now. And I know that our Lord was born on this day, and I know if it were not for him you would not be where you are today. Mike I dont know what my feelings are anymore sometimes I am mad other times I hurt so bad to see what is going on with your Mom. I just pray that you continue to watch over your mom and your boys. I LOVE YOU BOY AND MISS YOU MORE THAN I EVER HAVE SINCE YOU LEFT HOME. Love your Pop"
"Hey Michael, Just wanted to say HAPPY NEW YEARS, love ya. Suz and I miss you alot...Please watch over Mom and Dad they really need your strength. Hugz Till we meet again, love always cyn"
"Happy New Year!!! It wasn't very Happy without you calling @ midnight to wish me a Happy New Year & waking me up but, Dad & I did go to a Christian party & we stayed awake to 2:30 we're not the party animal you were but we wanted to welcome in the New Year & remember all the others with you. I know nothing can be as awful as losing you so 2003 has to be better than 2002. I looked up into the Heavenly sky last night @ midnight knowing you were there if you can't be here on earth with us I'm glad you're in Heaven even tho I'm more down that ever before in my life it's a great comfort to know you're not down & spending enternal life in hell. As Cindi says until we meet again! I Love You Baby Boy!!! Mommy"
"Mikee Well another year has come and gone, but now whats the big deal. I nolonger have you calling mom and I to wake us up anymore or to ask us where we were at midnight when we are not allowed out without your permission. Well mom nolonger works and its not what we wanted, when she retired I wanted to spend the rest of our time here on earth living in MI with you and the boys. I guess God has a different plan for us. I really am having a hard time with you being gone now, I am not as strong as I was for your mom I am going to have to ask for your help with giving your mom some comfort. I just wish that you would ask the Lord to continue to give us guidence and wisdom as for what he wants us to do in his work while we are here. I am starting to learn how much your mom really means to me and the time we have together. We went the other day to my work for a little while and then went down to the Vietnam memorial and I could feel how it meant so much to you. I bought your mom a braclet like the one you had she really wanted the guys name that you had but we have no idea who he was. Then we sat together and fed the squirrels. But I guess you already now all this as you watch over mom and I. I never really knew how much the little things in life could mean to each of us. I just pray that the Lord did not take you home because of trying to teach me how to love your mom as a husband. Watch over mom and I as we set out on our new life and ask the Lord to give me wisdom with our finances as mom stays at home now. I love you and miss you son. Love always your pop"
"MICHAEL, I WISH YOU A MERRY LATE CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEWYEAR. IT IS STILL PAINFUL AND DIFFICULT TO NOT HEARIR SEE YOU ALTHOUGH I KNOW YOU WATCHING. I THINK ABOUT YOU OFTEN AND WISH SO BAD THAT YOU WERE HERE.IT IS STILL CONFUSING.I PRAY THAT WE WILL MEET AGAIN AND THAT YOU WATCH OVER MOMMY AND DADDY AS THEY NEED YOU MORE THAN EVER.THERE IS REALLY NOONE WHO UNDERSTANDS HOW IT FEELS TO LOSE SOMEONE AS SPECIAL AS YOU UNLESS THEY THEMSELVES LIVE WITH IT AND HAVE THAT TO DEAL WITH EVERYDAY.IT FUSTRATES ME THAT I CAN'T TALK WITH ANYONE BECAUSE THEY DON'T UNERSTAND.WELL I JUST WANTED TO WISH YOU THEE ABOVE AND EXPLAIN A LITTLE OF WHAT I AM FEELING. PLEASE COMFORT TO YOUR MOMMY AND DADDY THEY REALLY NEED YOU! LOVE YOU STEPHANIE"
"Michael, Sorry it's been so long, I'm sure you know I think about you all the time. Now it has been ten years since Troy has left, I am sure the two of you will be with me on Monday. Never thought I would lose one of the few men that loved me enough to let Troy be a part of our relationship. And there is no way I can thank you for that. I pray that you and Troy will bring into my life someone who can accept that both of you will always be a part of my heart and soul. Look after mom and dad for us. (I love you against all odds) Love , Suzanne"
"Mikie, Happy Valentine's Day!!!! Wow I don't know where to began, you take a day like today when there's so much love in the air and it kinda loses something without you being here. On the radio they had a call in time asking people what was their most memorable Valentine Day and I can honestly say mine was the time you were on the road and said Mom I'm in Northern Va come get me, I was so happy it wasn't planned on my part & it was such a great day how I wish I could hear those words again, baby boy you don't know how much you are missed !!! I've never prayed that God would come and rapture his people more than I do now. But I'm not a happy camper anymore and dad tries but my heart has such a void in it since you've been gone. I Love you!!! Love Always, Mom"
"Hey Boy I was just thinking about you and how long it has been since I wrote you last. Today is Ash Wed. and I was remembering the day you came home from going with little girl to church and getting the ashes placed on your head. It made me laugh to remember that. I will always have the memories of you, but they are nothing compared to having you here to hold and love. I was remembering when I was listening to a song yesterday how I could go and talk to you when I needed someone to listen or have a shoulder to lay my head on and talk with. I sure miss our talks and time of dad can you help me get thru this stag of the video game I have been up all night and can get past this *@^%$) stupid game. Boy I sure miss you. It does'nt seem to be getting any better without you. Mom sure seems to be enjoying retirement, but I know if you were here she would have been enjoying it a whole lot more, but then I know she would be telling me we need to go and see the boys. Well son I will be talking with you later and watch over and put in a good word for suzanne as she has her surgery tommrow. Love you boy dad"
"Hey Michael, Just wanted to write and let you know that Suz is ok she is just in alot of pain. I know you all ready know but I just feel better writing you. I miss you alot! Everything is ok on my side but I think you all ready know. Jon-Michol has been diagnosed with Asberger Syndrome which is a form of autism. He is high functioning Autistic. I know that you already are watching over him, but you know I have to ask anyway. Watch over Mom and Dad, As if I have to say anything. LOL I can just hear you. Well that is all for now I love you. Until We Meet Again Cyndi"
"Mike, Well its been a while so thought I would take the opportunity to state the obvious. As you know Avery will soon be celebrating his 1st Birthday. I havent seen Avery in a month or so but he sure is a handsome lil devil, He receives allot of love and is a true blessing, Christina is doing a WONDERFUL job raising him. Thanks again for the beautiful gift you have given us. ~ "Uncle" Chad"
"Hello Mike, It would seem confusion, is every where no one wants to listen to anyone. They make up what they think they hear. When things have been done to comfort, express understanding, or love sommeone turns it around into what it is not. I love you still today as I always have, I miss you more than I can say. It's sad that people who loved the same person can not seem to understand and just love each other, or at the very minimum be respectful. Although people are able to, love hundreds of people or more, it seems being selfish and lying is what is going on instead. It also seems that many of the people that have loved you for so long can't understand that your love and their love for you can be shared. The only way they seem to feel like they are importantis to misbehave, twist the truth, or compleetly lie. I'm sorry that any of tjis is something that you have to see as you watch over us, because I know you would n't want fighting or meaness because you are gone. I will love you forever"
"Hey Baby Happy Easter, I wrote you earlier I guess it didn't sumit right. I just wanted you to know on this special day I didn't forget you just as I didn't forget what Jesus did for us so that we might have Enternal Life if it wasn't for the fact he died on the cross was buried & rose again I couldn't have the Blessed Assurance I would see you again. I'll write more later I just wanted to tell you I Love You & miss you and I'm not sure what happen to my first letter today. All My Love! Mom"
"Mike, It is hard to believe that you have been gone almost an year now. I keep looking over my shoulder expecting you to pop up like you normally did. And then I remember that you are up in heaven with the heavenly father. I miss you so much. Jon is doing well he will be home on June 10, Adin my other little one is very advance he is trying to speak in sentences now and keeps wowing his pediatrican. I am engaged we haven't set a date yet, but besides Suz you will be one of the first to know. Well Suz is finally getting her cast off on May 14, her birthday of all days. Watch over Mom , dad, and Suz this aniversary is going to be hard on everyone. Well that is all for now. I will write more later. Till we meet again, Love, Cyndi"
"One day it was a wonderful time in a wonderful place in heaven, and all of the young people would gather together every single day. And it was beautiful, absolutely gorgeous there, and they were all wearing white there was pain , no suffering, no drugs, no hurt, and no fear. Every single day all of these young people would light a white candle and they would go on a walk through heaven with GOD. But there was one young man who would never go, he would always just sit to the side, and the other young people asked him one day Why don't you light you candle and go with us?? The young man replyed because every time I light my candle My loved ones tears put it out. Those tears hold me prisoner so I must stay until I am released by loved ones!! And that young man is Michael. --How long you grieve DOES NOT show how much you care or love someone who is gone!-- Michael, I love you and miss you very much. I'll never forget you and you'll be in my heart everyday. Now I must let you go and not be someone who keeps you prisoner from that wonderful place called heaven. I know you will watch over all of the people YOU loved and one day I'll see you again. My Love Forever Till Then"
"Mikie, Hello baby boy! I can't believe it's been a year since you've been gone it seems like a lifetime. I wanted to take a moment to express my love for you on this day and let you know you're in my heart forever. Neldy turned eighty today it's hard to believe. Until we meet again, Mom loves you and misses you deeply, I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART & SOUL MOM"
"Hey Mike, It's hard to believe that you've been gone for a year now. I miss you, more than I could of ever imagined. Jon is coming home on June 12th finally. Watch over Mom this has been a really hard year on all of us but especially for her and Kenny. Well I know your happy and your somewhere where there is no more heartache or pain, lord knows you had more than your share. Just know I love you and your never far from my thoughts. Till we meet again, Love always, Cyndi"
"Mike, Hey Baby I know it's been a couple of months since I've written but it's not because I don't think of you everyday that goes bye, I could write you a journal but I only will write on special days that I know you loved. I can't believe it's going to be another 4th of July without you, When all the fireworks are going off tonight I will be thinking of you and how much you loved them when you were little but most of all I'll be thinking how beautiful the sky will be when Jesus comes back and we all meet again what a day that will be, they say it gets easier well so far for me it hasn't when you died a big part of me died with you. I miss you so much!! Till next time! I'm praying & thinking & still loving you! MOM"
"Hey Mike, Just wanted to wish you a Happy Belated Fourth. Yeah Yeah I know its kinda late . Bill and I were up in Ohio Visiting his mom and Dad. I saw the fireworks and thought of you. We have a name for the baby her name will be Abrianna Irene. Watch over Mom and Dad. Jon is doing great. But ofcorse you already know that. I Love and Miss You Very Much Till We Meet Again...... Kisses and hugs and all that stuff Cyndi"
"Mike, Hey! Well July 15th 29 years ago I was the happiest & proudest mommy in the whole world, today 29 years later I'm still proud I had you but so sad you're not here with me other than in sprit, Wow I miss you so very much I'm really hurting today I can't believe you're gone. I get on the computer late at night to try and recapture the last few weeks we spent talking into the early morning hours when we both had to go to work or college I just want to go back to that time and I can't I still have some what ifs and issues I can't settle and mentally it's tearing me up enough about me, Today is your day. There is a scripture verse "Today is the day the Lord has made rejoice and be glad in it". So I did to rejoice 29 years ago so I will try again because you made me a better person and you taught me to love unconditionally you were and still are the best thing that ever happen in my life. I love Kenny & your sons but you are "The wind beneath my wings". I Love You & Pray Every Day That Your Death Wasn't In Vain. Till We I Meet Again, Mom"
"Mike, Hey! Well July 15th 29 years ago I was the happiest & proudest mommy in the whole world, today 29 years later I'm still proud I had you but so sad you're not here with me other than in sprit, Wow I miss you so very much I'm really hurting today I can't believe you're gone. I get on the computer late at night to try and recapture the last few weeks we spent talking into the early morning hours when we both had to go to work or college I just want to go back to that time and I can't I still have some what ifs and issues I can't settle and mentally it's tearing me up enough about me, Today is your day. There is a scripture verse "Today is the day the Lord has made rejoice and be glad in it". So I did to rejoice 29 years ago so I will try again because you made me a better person and you taught me to love unconditionally you were and still are the best thing that ever happen in my life. I love Kenny & your sons but you are "The wind beneath my wings". I Love You & Pray Every Day That Your Death Wasn't In Vain. Till We Meet Again, Mom"
"Hey Boy Just wanted to wish you a Happy Birthday and to tell you that I miss you. It seems like just yesterday that your mom and I met and you came into my life. I will always remember that day when I met you for the first time. You know that I always did and will always continue to love you. I was not always what you wanted me to be, but I tried as hard as I could to do as much for you as I could. I wish sometimes things could have been different for us, as later in life you found out about hunting and fishing that we could have done more together. I dont think anyone knows how bad your mom hurts everyday. She misses you so much boy. I just hope the LORD comes back soon so we can all be together again. I will make a promise to you that I will tell your sons about you and more about the LORD Jesus Christ and what he has done in your life and what he can do for theirs. Well I wish you were here so I would have the problem of trying to figure out what to get you for your birthday. You know there is not a day that goes by anymore that I dont stop and reflect back on all the times that we had together. And I can still hear your voice as if you were here saying "Hey pops". You dont know how I wish I could be there to take your place for you and your mom. I had always been some what selfish I guess, but I guess I have grown in the LORD as I would give everything I have to take your place for your mom. I dont care anymore about myself as I hurt so bad to see everyday how your mom suffers from missing you. Well son I know it's been a while since I have wrote but I love you and happy birthday boy. Till we meet again daddy loves you. P.S. Mike watch over your mom for me"
"Michael Happy Birthday. I have been missing you a lot but I know you would not want me to be selfish and wallow. I am at a place in my life where I no longer care what other people think or say about me. It has been interesting down here with almost all of the people that "LOVE" you being rude, mean, selfish and ignorant at times. I can honestly say I have never seen or heard such bizarre comments and people believing lies with no substantial proof. I used to feel bad for a lot of people because I understand the pain from the loss of you but that stopped when people began to lie and hope we all will be together soon. I would love to see you again however I can wait until it is my time, and I will celebrate the love and friendship we shared, until that day. That way your life and death were not in vain. I saw somehing today that made me laugh and cry all at once because it reminded me of you and something you always wanted me to remember. The movie was on this morning and I am watching it right now and I keep hearing that melody. I know you understand. I Love You. Until we are together again AAO. Love Always and Forever, Suzanne"
"Hey Mike, Happy Birthday Hun. Well It's hard to believe that your not here, but I know your up in heaven looking down over us and shaking your head at us. Everything is going well my way. But as I am sure you already know Mom and dad aren't doing to well. Suz and I are still close. Well that is all for now Just watch over your mom and dad. Love always 'till we meet again Cyndi"
"My Dear Michael, Happy belated B-Day! I wanted to let you know that a day doesn't go by without me wondering how you are and what you are doing.I really miss everything that we have done together. However this is your day. I hope you had a good B-day and know that you are always in my thoughts. Love You, Stephanie"
"Michael, Hello sweety. I have been going through a few things that no one else knows about and I do not intend on telling anyone, I know it is safe with you. I am so glad to know you are looking over me and when it is my time you will be there to greet me. I have been thinking a lot about how it felt to be in your arms and be able to feel how I was feeling without judgment. You were the first person after losing T that made me feel safe. I never told you something, I am sure you know now, and I am sorry. I remember how it felt to be with you and see the love in your eyes. If I did not tell you "I love you," enough I am so sorry. The last conversation we had will forever stay with me, and I will keep the promise I made to you no matter what. Although you were a pain in the behind at times I never stopped loving you. I hope that your wonderful boys will know their Dad by hearing memories from every single person who loved you. I had intended on putting together memory albums for your boys and your parents but someone lied and someone else chose to believe it, so it looks like I will have a VERY DIFFICULT time doing that but I will do my best. Cyndi just lost a friend she worked with on the 4th of July, so please look after her and the little one. Also look over your parents and help them if you can, no matter how they feel about me. I care about them a lot (and will never treat them like trash) but I cannot say they care about me anymore and maybe never again. If that is how it must be then I accept it despite how much it may hurt. I Love You Always and Forever. With Love AAO, Suzanne"
"My Dearest Michael, I was thinking that I need to write to you.I really miss you alot and think about you every day that goes by. I wish you were still here in person. The pain of losing you is so very hard. I wish I could see you or just hear your voice.Knowing that you can see me and that I can't see you hurts.Please come see me in my dreams again soon it lets me know that you are okay.I sit here ready to cry because our memories are so very strong and deep.Please keep me in your thoughts and come visit soon.Please watch over Mommy and Daddy they really need you. Until next time. I Love You, Stephanie"
"Mike, Just though I would write and tell you I love you and miss you alot!!!! Till We Meet Again Cyn"
"Michael, Hello sweetheart. I have been thinking about you a lot for a few days now. I was remembering our special day. I remember every sensation and thought I had. The smile on your face how you pulled my hair out of a braid because you liked it down. You were so sweet and understanding as we talked and I laughed at the T.V. because its' colors were not right. Our trip to Wal-Mart was oh so fun for an hour and a half looking for a certain car. I will cherish the memory of that day and all of the others I had with you. I LOVE You and Always Have and Always Will. I found out some things about certain people and I was right when I guessed the answer. It is their problem not mine. I am just glad I can say I am authentic, unlike some. I am sure you know what I mean. You would be proud of me I am pursuing 2 very important dreams. Watch over all of those you love. I will see you when I get there, when it is my time no sooner. All My Love AAO, Suzanne"
"Dearest Michael, As I have been driving my old car recently Iam remembering all the times we shared whether it was going to a party or you driving me to the doctors when I fell ill. i really miss you and those memories. Please do me a favor as you watch over your family please watch out for me. Thanks. I hope that you are okay and let it be known that you are always in my thoughts. I love Ya Stephanie"
"Michael, Hello, sweetheart. It would seem many changes are occurring in people right now. Some people are making positive changes for their benefit without hurting other whereas others are making changes that in many ways can and probably will bite them later. I cannot judge since it is not my job. I am proud to say that all of the changes I in my life will not harm anyone (to my knowledge) and will make me a better person and Christian. I have been doing well in school however I am considering changing my double major to a different double major. Either way I am glad that I decided to go back to school online. You were my inspiration. Thank you for that and everything else you loved and supported me through no matter what (even when you were mad or did not agree). I will miss hearing you tell me you are there for me but I will never forget that you are looking down on me still supporting me. Cyndi had a beautiful little girl, born on 9-18-2003, the day a hurricane that turned into a tropical storm hit. We were lucky we did not get hit full force. Jon and Adin are doing well and they love their new sister. Thanks for watching over Cyndi and the boys and now her beautiful little girl. Watch over everyone you love and I will see you there when my time comes, no sooner. All My Love AAO, Suzanne"
"Michael, It has been a while. I thought I would write and tell you how things are going. I am still recovering, very slowly and have some more tests I need to have performed. I am sure all will be okay. I have given it to God so I am not as scared as I was before. School is going fine. My grades are still very high and I am staying with my original double major. Some of the people are dumb like some people we knew/know. Cyndi and the kids are doing fine. Her little girl is soooo beautiful and she loves me, as I do her. Her brothers are very protective of her. They are so cute when it comes to her. Jon had another Birthday, he has gotten so big. I love and miss you. I will see you when it is my time. Love you always AAO, S"
"Michael, Hi hunny!!!! I am Sorry I haven't written in awhile....As you know I had a beautiful baby girl, she is doing well.. Jon and Adin adore her.. I haven't heard from mom in awhile, I hope things are ok.. Rara is still as spry as always but as he says he misses his Boy :) Your never far from my thoughts, as you took a piece of me with you.. I was listening to a new song and it made me think of you.. Can you hear me when I talk to you??? I wish I knew. Well let me go I will write more later I will love you always until we meet again my love Cyndi"
"Dearest Michael, well it's been a while since I have written.When I logged on today your picture just kept looking at me and for a moment I felt your eyes connect with mine.It's so hard not to be able to see you or hug you or even talk face to face.I miss you so much. My memories are so strong that my eyes swell with tears.There was so much that I wanted to say to you but I never got too.Your love,attetion and caring ways are something that I really miss.The relationship we shared will never be forgotten.Sometimes I don't understand your death and wish there was someone I could confide in because there are alot of days I cover up.I know that you are in heaven and like I have said that is a comfort but that doesn't mean that I don't sometimes I don't understand this.Why? All I hear and know is that you're gone and somwhere in that big beutiful sky you're there with your Angel wings and that you're spirit is always near.Plaese watch over you Mommy and Daddy. Love Always, Stephanie"
"Mikie, Hey Baby Sorry it's been a long time since I've written but I didn't want to belittle your so called friends that say they love you but continue to bash your love ones. However this is the day our family is celebrating Thanksgiving since I had to work Thursday. I just wanted to thank God above for giving me the 27 years we had together, I kinda like Steph I know you're in heaven but I can't help but wonder why you? Why my baby boy? Working at the shelter has opened my eyes alot I have seen where giving you everything you ever whated hurts but I pray everyday that I can make a difference in somebody's life and I can continue to witness to them God's word but also tell them bad things happen to good people you were and your memories are the best thing that has ever happen to me. I love you now and forever. A couple weeks ago daddy couldn't understand why I was so upset I guess he couldn't figure out, it had been two years since you got hurt and since I had seen you some days are harder than others but I am trying to be strong I know you have two boys that need their Granny. I got Noah & Avery their Hess trucks so keeping with tradition the boys will have one put away for them. Keep watching out over your love ones! Till we meet again on the other side, Mommy"
"Michael, It seems that your Mommy thinks that some people do not Love you because they do NOT agree with her/others and or her/their actions. That is very sad for her and I am sorry she actually believes that makes people NOT love you. It is very much they dislike certain people's actions BUT STILL LOVE YOU with their whole heart. I hope she sees that someday, if not that is her loss and her pain to bear, no one elses. I will be praying for her and the others involved. Enough of that topic. I noticed that people keep asking, why you? and the only answer that I have ever heard that makes sense and is what I have been told by the Pastor is, "God had a plan for you and it was your time to join him so you could watch over the people you love until they join you." As a Christian and a saved person that is the only answer that makes any sense and brings a little bit of peace to my heart from the pain of you passing on. Life is not fair, no one said it was and it never will be. Having said that I must say I find comfort knowing that you are no longer in pain, only feel love and are as free as a bird (or should I say Angel)!!! No matter what happens down here, rest in peace with the Lord. I love you very much and I always will. I will see you when I get there, when it is my time, no sooner. All my love AAO, S"
"Mike, Hey sweetie, I'ts been awhile since I wrote. Your never far from my thoughts and your always in my heart. Things are going well, I am compliplating about going into the airforce. Jon has recieved very good grades this year, all B's and 1 A. Adin is doing well and Abby is getting big. Merry Christmas my love. I will see you when it is my time. Till We Meet Again Cyndi"
"Merry Christmas Just a brief hello to say I know you must be celebrating up in Heaven with all the people down here coming to know Jesus and even tho alot only had in mind visions of Santa and gifts it's amazing how God has turned that around for so many people this year and they too can have the true GIFT OF LIFE. To think how much you loved Christmas and all your presents brings back so many happy memories and little did we know the best gift was the one God give us enteral life what a blessing. Mom loves you and misses you very much it's hard to celebrate anything without you but I Love You and just wanted to tell you you're in my prayers heart and I'll Love You Forever. Mommy"
"Mike, Hey sweetie, I just wanted to wish you a Merry Christmas, It was one of your favorite holidays. I know that you are up there in Heaven looking down on all of us who love you and celebrateing Christ's birthday with us.. I hope your having a ball in heaven and just laughing at us. Jon is getting so big now and I know that your his special angel along with being Avery and Noah's daddy angel. Thank you for giving me your mom, Kenny and Suzanne they have been blessings in my life .. Please help resolve this issue they have between them ,because we all need one another and I know you wouldn't like your loved ones fighting. Well just know that I love you and I thank the LORD for letting me know and love you. Till we meet again, I love you. Always know that, Cyndi"
"Michael, Sorry I did not get a chance to say Merry Christmas yesterday. I spent most of the day thanking the Lord for his son and the sacrifice he eventually made by giving his only son so that all who love, believe in and accept him, as their savior would have eternal life. What a precious and completely selfless gift. I thought about how I have so much more than others do and how I can give of myself to help those less fortunate. I thought how you loved Christmas and how you would probably want me to do all I can with the time I have on this earth instead of wallowing in self pity for what I do not have and what I have lost. Watch over everyone you love and protect them. Try to help heal your loved ones hearts and souls. The fighting and nastiness that has been going on for too long saddens me. It is beyond stupid and sad that it all started over a misunderstanding that turned into a lie and grew from there. It hurts that I believed that when people said they loved others that they actually meant it without conditions. I guess I was wrong and I have learned a BIG lesson, maybe God is the only one who loves unconditionally. I pray everyday that everyone involved can grow/get past this whole thing. Thank you for always loving me. I always have and always will love you. Rest in peace with the Lord. I will see you when it is my time, no sooner. I will love you until then. Love always AAO, S"
"Hey, Happy New Year! Here's to 2004! My prayer is that it's better than 2002. Last night in the City of Fredericksburg when they dropped the pear at midnight my thoughts were of you and remembering the New Years when you would call and wake me up to wish me a Happy New Year I did this one for you. I love you and miss you. Mom"
"Michael, Hello sweetheart. I have decided to focus on the important people and things in my life this year instead of the petty ones. I thought about all of the precious time I wasted on all of the BS from last year, NOT WORTH IT ANYMORE!!!! People make choices all the time and at this time it looks like the choice being made is to continue behaving in a rude manner and unwilling to move to the future and except that all people make mistakes and that GOD is the only being who has the job to judge. I forgive all who have wronged me and am sorry to all I have wronged. I am giving it to GOD because I know he can and will handle it. I am doing this because NICE MATTERS and to be the best Christian I can be. I saw a few things that reminded me of you and I thought might make some people think and feel a bit better, at least it did make me feel better. The Broken Chain We little knew that morning that GOD was going to call your name, In life, we loved you dearly, in death, we do the same. It broke our hearts to lose you, you did not go alone; for part of us went with you, the day GOD called you home. You left us peaceful memories, your LOVE still our guide; and though we cannot see you, you are always at our side. Our chain is broken, and nothing seems the same, but as GOD calls us one by one, the chain will link again. Gone No farewell words were spoken, No time to say good-bye, You were gone before we knew it, And only GOD knows why. I love you and will see you when my time comes and not before that. Love Always AAO, S"
"Michael, I forgot to post this yesterday. Some people Stay Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for awhile but all leave footprints on our hearts and we are never the same. That clearly describes how I feel about you and quite a few others who have passed on. I will never be the same but I am better for having had you as a part of my life. Knowing that you are with the Lord and being a Christian makes the loss easier for me to handle. I love you and I will see you when it is my time, no sooner. Love always AAO, S"
"Michael, I was reading the other day and I saw something else that made me feel a bit better. It is from the Bible and is something I have been doing all along. Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not to your own understanding. In all ways, acknowledge Him and He shall direct your path. Proverbs 3: 5,6 When I heard you were gone, I had so many questions and it hurt so much I thought the pain would never subside. I still have many questions and the pain is still with me but not to the degree of wallowing or the way it was on that sad day. I will never 'get over' losing you and I am sure many of the questions will remain but I will continue to do all I can and move forward making the most of the time I have on earth so that I can honor your memory and show the love I have for you everyday. I can still here your voice and the last conversation we had. What a proud Daddy you were and how you bragged about your boys. I am sure you are watching over them, still loving them with all of your heart. I am sure you are watching over all of the people you love and I do not think that will ever stop no matter what anyone else wants. I love you dearly. Rest in peace with the Lord and I will see you when it is my time, no sooner. With Love Always AAO, S"
"Mike, Hi honey just wanted to drop you a little note to let you know that I am still thinking of you. Right now I am going thru medic class so I have veryy little time between the 9 yr old the 2 yrol and the 4 month old. I watch the ball come down on the tube in theBig Apple and thought of how you wanted to go and watch it in person. I know that you were watching it in Heaven on your cloud. Well I love you and always will Till We Meet Again Love always Cyndi"
"Michael, Hi sweetheart. I just wanted to let you know that I am thinking about you. I found a few more things that made me think of you and I wanted to share with anyone else who cares. No one.... Our hearts still ache in sadness, and secret tears still flow, what it meant to lose you, no one will ever know. A Memory... When someone you love becomes a memory, the memory becomes a treasure. Your Spirit... Gone yet not forgotten, although we are apart, your spirit lives within me, forever in my heart. Remembering you. I remember you when the flowers bloom, early in the spring. I remember you on sunny days, in the fun that summer brings. I remember you in the fall, as I walk through the leaves of gold. And in the wintertime- I remember you in the stories that are told. But most of all I remember you, each day- right from the start. You will be forever near, for you live within my heart. I am sure I am not the only one that feels this way about you and our loss. We may not like each other and we may never have anything else in common again but we do have our love for you and how you will always be a part of all of our lives. No matter what happens, no matter who does what that will never change the fact that you touched all of us in your own special way, with love. Rest in peace with the Lord. I will see you when it is my time, no sooner. Love always AAO, S"
"Dearest Michael, How are you? Well i am hanging in there.boy I sure wish I could hear your voice so I could catch you up on what's been going on although I realize your watching it's just that your voice is very comforting. pleasse take care of my Grandfather as he comes to join you in Heaven.Gosh I just so miss you it still doesn't get any easier but I am trying. Well I gotta get but I thought I would write a quick little something. Love You Always Stephanie"
"Michael, I just wanted to say I love you. Cyndi moved and does not have access to a computer so she asked me to tell you she loves you. The kids are doing well. Keep an eye on the people you love. See you when it is my time. Rest in peace with the Lord. Love Always AAO, S"
"Michael, Hello sweetheart. I got a couple of emails that made me think about you and how you would want me to live my life. READ EACH SENTENCE SLOWLY AND THINK ABOUT IT. Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear. Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you. Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget. Don't let the past hold you back; you're missing the good stuff. When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your BEST FRIEND will be there. Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them. Remember, every minute spent angry is sixty seconds of happiness wasted. God bless! Your bank.... The 92-year-old, petite, well-poised and proud lady, who is fully dressed each morning by eight o'clock, with her hair fashionably coifed and makeup perfectly applied, even though she is legally blind, moved to a nursing home today. Her husband of 70 years recently passed away, making the move necessary. After many hours of waiting patiently in the lobby of the nursing home, she smiled sweetly when told her room was ready. As she maneuvered her walker to the elevator, I provided a visual description of her tiny room, including the eyelet sheets that had been hung on her window. "I love it," she stated with the enthusiasm of an eight-year-old having just been presented with a new puppy. "Mrs.. Jones, you haven't seen the room .... just wait." "That doesn't have anything to do with it," she replied. "Happiness is something you decide on ahead of time. Whether I like my room or not doesn't depend on how the furniture is arranged... it's how I arrange my mind. I already decided to love it "It's a decision I make every morning when I wake up. I have a choice; I can spend the day in bed recounting the difficulty I have with the parts of my body that no longer work, or get out of bed and be thankful for the ones that do. Each day is a gift, and as long as my eyes open I'll focus on the new day and all the happy memories I've stored away ... just for this time in my life. Old age is like a bank account ... you withdraw from what you've put in .. So, my advice to you would be to deposit a lot of happiness in the bank account of memories. Thank you for your part in filling my Memory bank. I am still depositing. Remember the five simple rules to be happy: 1. Free your heart from hatred. 2. Free your mind from worries. 3. Live simply. 4. Give more. 5. Expect less. I miss and love you. Watch over everyone you love. I will see you when it is my time, no sooner. Rest in peace with the Lord. Love Always AAO, S"
"Hey Michael, Well we are all moved in....Kids are sick and so am I, go figure. Well just wanted to jot down and let you know that you are in my thoughts always. I will always love you no matter what, and I remember what you told me once after we had a fight,,, You will always be there for me and your son Jon. ..Thank you so much for your friendship and love and for all the beautiful people you brought into my life I love you forever and always Till we meet again Cyndi"
"Mikey- It's been almost two years since you have died. I miss you every day. Noah is getting so big. He looks just like you. Noah should have been a junior. He even snores and sweats like you when he sleeps. He has the mikey attitude also. He is loveable and fun and he is so smart. He loves wrestling,Nascars(he has a race car bed.G0 figure.)loves books,likes to sing and he laughs like no one I ever have heard. Every day he reminds me of you. Every day I see him, I remember all the times we went out to find trouble. Trouble always found us too. Never got caught though did we. Noah is the light of my life just like you were for me. I will always remember the first time we meet. COKE no ice,cheeseburger with fries. ketcup,mustard and mayo on the side for the fries. And lets not forget the vampire teeth. Yikes! You are my best friend and always will be. So many years of love and friendship. I wonder sometimes what to do now. Noah is starting to ask about his daddy. I know somewhere in his heart your there with him. Expecially when he is into mischief. Did I tell you today I love you? I LOVE YOU! Love you always- Hugs and Kisses Mickey"
"Mikey- Earlier I talked with aunt Lindee about putting a memory book together about you for Noah. So he can have pictures of you to see and know he had a daddy that loved him very much. I am going to call your mom and see if I can get some pictures of you and noah, and pictures of you and the family they may have. I have pictures of Neldy and Rhy,Rhy. I will have some more when I go and see them this summer. They may even have some of Avery. That would be real cool if they do. Avery will be Two soon. Noah already has his presents. He picked them out his self. What a big boy! We love you always- Hugs and Kisses Mickey and Noah"
"Hey Baby, I talked to Noah today and he's doing alot better, he's like you gets all excited and he trys to talk a mile a minute, He told me he was coming to see me soon, Yeah another chance to spoil another Young I can't wait, I can't believe Avery will be two soon, Steve sent me some pictures he's a darling little boy. Hopefully one day Chris will bring him down to Virginia. I keep praying one day I'll get the strength to go back up to Michigan but it doesn't look like it will be anytime soon the memories of you there and the fun times we had are great but I can't get over the fact you died there and physically aren't here with me anymore however you'll always be in my heart. I'll love you forever."
"My Dearest Michael, How much do I miss you? So much. I really miss all of those wonderful times we spent together. I have told Mommy that I will be writing a poem about you and will prsent them this in a very unique way. It is a surprise for them. Today is a very sunny and not to hot of a day and it reminds me of all the summer fun we would have. You are a very BIG part of my life and I am thankful of everyday that I did get to know you and fall in love with you.I still drive my Sundance and think of all of our crazy adventures. Those times seem of only yesterday.I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU!!. When the time comes and I am having a child your name will be used. It was truly an honor to get to know you and get the chance to love you. I am a lucky person. Now I want you to make sure that you have taken all your wonderful gifts with you and never forget to help guide us as sometimes we go through lifes rollacoasters. Thankyou for the relationship that you had with me.I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER!!. I Miss & Love You Michael, Stephanie"
"Mike, Just to let you are in my thoughts today as of everyday that passes. I hope today brings a nice one. Please watch over Mommy and Daddy for they need you so.Please bring out the sun again.Yesterday was so incrediably beautiful.I hope that you're doing okay up there and until we meet again. Love You, Stephanie"
"Michael, I was thinking about you today and so I thought I would just write you to say I LOVE YOU and miss you very much. Look over all of the people you love. Rest in Peace with the Lord. I will see you when it is my time, no sooner. Love Always and Forever AAO, S"
"My Dearest Michael, Hello. Thankyou for bringing out the sun!! Tommorw I will be spending some time with Mommy and Daddy.That will be good for me to do. I got the job over at Wells Fargo Home Mortgage. Please pray for me that I make it.Once the training is over I will be working part-time so that gives me the oppurtunity to go to school in the afternoon so, I can get back into the nursing field.I know that you had plans of going back in were in that process of going back to teach. I know you are up in heaven teaching just remember to use llots of patiece. Well I'm going to talk with you later. Love You Lots, Stephanie"
"Mike, Just wanted to write and say you are never far from my thoughts. I saw this guy the other day driving and I had to do a double take, I swear he looked just like you. Man was it weird. I love you and I hope all is well up there. Well Jon-Michol is doing well he just got another great report card its hard to believe that he is going to be 10 this year. You should see him on his roller blades he goes so fast it just about scares me hes a little dare devil just like someone else I know. LOL Well gotta scoot Watch over Mom and Kenny and Suzanne I haven't heard from her in abit Love you Till We Meet again, Cyndi"
"My dearest Michael, I will be seeing Mommy and Daddy today sice the last time things got canceled on us. It has been a long time since we have seen each other.I realize that it will be kind of emotional but, I konow your spirit will guide over us and protect us as we meet and see each other for the first time since your passing.I am nervous. I really miss you and wish you too could physically be there but, like I said above I know that your spirit will be there.I can't wait until I am finally done with your poem/things I want people to know about you. You and Mommy and Daddy will be most honored. I still wish I could talk with you to let you know how deep my feelings went but, I hope you do know that I will always miss and love you forever. Please watch over us this evening and forever. LOVE YOU STEPHANIE"
"Dear Michael, I saw your parents on Saturday as planned. We had a good time. It was different. I am so used to at least seeing you or talking about you it was difficult but, I managed to keep my composer. Eventually the pain will come out. I so miss you and wish that you were here. You will always be within a part of me. Since I am near the end of my lunch hour I will have to write later. Love You, Stephanie"
"Mike, Well it's almost been two years since you passed and went up to heaven with the LORD I miss you so much, there is so much I want to say but I don't want to write it here for others to read. I love you. You will be sooo proud of Jon-Michol he is almost at his grades reading level and he is doing fourth grade math I am so proud of him. I just recently talked to Geoff, he is doing ok He is still hurting alot and won't talk about it please watch over him, Suz and your mom and Kenny they really need you. Well gotta go for now I am having oral surgery in the morning. I will write more later. Till we meet again, Love Cyndi"
"My Dearest Michael, Yesterday was very hard on me. I miss you so very much and wish you were here. I haven't talked with Geoff in so long I need somehow to get his number. I miss him lots.Maybe if someone reads this e-mail they can pass along his number to me as long as when they send the email they put it to my attention.Right now I am trying to get some laundry done so tommorw there won't be as much. I don't mind the washing it's the waiting to dry everything I hate. I haven't been able to sleep much. The heat here is very draining. I have cleaned the house almost everyday this week for some odd reason.It is still strange that you're in Heaven. There is a place inside my heart that has memories of you and I. Then there is a place where it's emty because you're gone and there is noone on earth who can replace it because that was your spot. Well I have talked enough for now until I see you again. I love You Michael, Stephanie"
"Mikie, Well Baby some how I made it through Mother's Day and the second anniversary day of your death it's been a struggle even tho I know you're with the Lord it's so hard on your loved ones you left behind, We all miss you and pray you are watching out for each and everyone that you came across in your life, those of us that truly knew you know that you are a child of God and would want them not to hurt, not to suffer so Mikie for you my love my anger my hard feeling towards others that you loved or know I'm putting aside so I can be a better witness in my Christian life and so that I can carry on your love. I couldn't get on the web page on Mother's Day so I didn't write you then but just know there's not a day that goes bye that you're not in my thoughts and you'll always be in my heart, Kenny & I miss you it's just not the same without our boy. We'll love you forever and forever you'll be our baby. I'm so glad we'll see ya on the other side that's the only thing that keeps me going. I love you!! Mom"
"Michael, I have been doing a lot of thinking and I have come to many conclusions. I am glad to see that others are doing what I have done for a long time. Maybe now, those who love you will be able to love you without criticism, bad mouthing, etc... and finally get along to some extent. As Cyndi said I have so much I want to say but I am not going to write it here because it is private. I know you are happy and safe where you are and that you are protecting all of the people you love. Thank you for the sign the other day, I really needed it. You could not have picked anything better to get the point across to me. I no longer have any doubt. Please be with me when I go to get my tests done. I am sure it is nothing but it is better to get checked and be sure instead of ignoring a possible problem. I am sure you were with Avery on his Birthday and I hope he will get to know about his Dad and what a wonderful person you were despite any obstacles you had to overcome. I love you and miss you. Rest in peace with the Lord. I will see you when it is my time no sooner. Love Always AAO, S XOXOXO P.S. I read this story and thought of you! A story to help us remember. Sally jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: "How is my little boy? Is he going to be all right? When can I see him?" The surgeon said, "I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn't make it." Sally said, "Why do little children get cancer? Doesn't God care any more? Where were you, God, when my son needed you?" The surgeon asked, "Would you like some time alone with your son? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the University." Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good-bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair. "Would you like a lock of his hair?" the nurse asked. Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally. The mother said, "It was Jimmy's idea to donate his body to the University for study. He said it might help somebody else. "I said no at first, but Jimmy said, 'Mom, I won't be using it after I die. Maybe it will help some other little boy spend one more day with his Mom." She went on, "My Jimmy had a heart of gold. Always thinking of someone else. Always wanting to help others if he could." Sally walked out of Children's Mercy Hospital for the last time, after spending most of the last six months there. She put the bag with Jimmy's belongings on the seat beside her in the car. The drive home was difficult. It was even harder to enter the empty house. She carried Jimmy's belongings, and the plastic bag with the lock of his hair to her son's room. She started placing the model cars and other personal things back in his room exactly where he had always kept them. She laid down across his bed and, hugging his pillow, cried herself to sleep. It was around midnight when Sally awoke. Lying beside her on the bed was a folded letter. The letter said: "Dear Mom, I know you're going to miss me; but don't think that I will ever forget you, or stop loving you, just 'cause I'm not around to say I LOVE YOU. I will always love you, Mom, even more with each day. Someday we will see each other again. Until then, if you want to adopt a little boy so you will not be so lonely, that's okay with me. He can have my room and old stuff to play with. However, if you decide to get a girl instead, she probably would not like the same things us boys do. You will have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like, you know. Do not be sad thinking about me. This really is a neat place. Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me around some, but it will take a long time to see everything. The angels are so cool. I love to watch them fly. And, you know what? Jesus does not look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I knew it was Him. Jesus himself took me to see GOD! And guess what, Mom? I got to sit on God's knee and talk to Him, like I was somebody important. That is when I told Him that I wanted to write you a letter, to tell you good-bye and everything. However, I already knew that was not allowed. Well, you know what Mom? God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter. I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you. God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him 'Where was He when I needed him?' "God said He was in the same place with me, as when His son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He always is with all His children. Oh, by the way, Mom, no one else can see what I have written except you. To everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper. Isn't that cool? I have to give God His pen back now. He needs it to write some more names in the Book of Life. Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I am, sure the food will be great. Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I do not hurt anymore. The cancer is all gone. I am glad because I could not stand that pain anymore and God could not stand to see me hurt so much, either. That is when He sent The Angel of Mercy to come get me. The Angel said I was a Special Delivery! How about that? Signed with Love from: God, Jesus & Me. Let us see Satan stop this one."
"Dearest Mike, I finally got a job working with people. Now I will be helping a couple that is disabled.I am also going back to school in the fall to persue my nursing carrer. This makes me so very happy. I wanted to let you know since you always told me you wanted the best for me. I really miss you alot and hope that all is well up there. There is not a day that goes by that you are always in my thoughts. I Love You, Stephanie"
"Michael, Just a quick little note to let you know that I am thinking about you. However I am always thinking about you but, wanted to write a little. I got accepted to attend at the local college whenever I want to go. I am awaiting to have my meeting next week with the lady in charge of the nursing program.This is so exciting I can't wait to go back to school this fall and persue my goals and dreams of a better future where I will become fincially stable. Well I gotta get going. I miss and Love You Lots. Love Always, Stephanie"
"My Dearest Michael, Happy 30th Birthday!! I wanted to write you today to make sure you knew that I did not forget. I miss you so much and will always love you for all the days of my life. I hope special day.I got news this morning that they have given me my grant for school and I know that you are so proud of me I just feel it and know that you are always around me. Someday soon I will be honoring you and you will like it promiss. I hope that this day and all your days will be filled with happiness and joys of everything that you wish. Till I write again Michael. HAPPY BIRTHDAY I LOVE YOU Stephanie"
"Mikie, Happy Birthday. I had such big plans for your 30th birthday. Our friend Hillbilly was born on the 15th also so we went out tonight and celebrated yours and his birthday, not what I had planned for your big day but I was so very happy 30 years ago just the thought of my beautiful baby boy just brings joy to my heart nobody will ever take your place you are and always will be my pride & joy and the love of my life my love for you like my love for Kenny is agrape. I'm writing this on the 16th because I wanted the 15th to be special and I wanted to write this with a clear head. I love you! Party harty till we're together again and then we'll let the good times roll."
"Hey Boy Just a note to tell you that I love and miss you. I see you helping in all things going on now in Moms and my life. Well I got to see my little boy that I thought you and I would get the chance to do things toghether with, but I guess God had a different plan. I just pray that you will let me make the right dicisions in his life and that I cant wait to see Jesus and you meet me at the gates. Mom and I are always joking about who is going to get to see Jesus and you first her or me, but I know that its in Gods hands and time not ours. If I know you like I have in the past you will be telling God to let Mom win. And thats ok cause I dont want Mom to be left here with out one of us here and you already left. You I know are proud of your Mom for what she is doing with trying to give help to those that need it. She has become close to so many lives and she gives so much for them. I know that you are her reson for doing this along with God. If she cane make one Mom not have to bear her pain that she lives with everyday, I know she knows that it is worth it. Your Mom is so giving and I pray that God and you will continue to let her grow and gain strength from you both. Well boy dad has to go and get to work. I love you and miss my one and only son. Love Pop"
"My Dearest Michael, I am sorry that I haven't written in a while I have been working everyday and going to Nursing school at nite.You are always in my thoughts and I sooo miss you.I see you as an educator up in Heaven since that's where your life was taking you.Always remember patience my Love. Some take longer than others. I still have our memories and they stay in my heart and soul.I look to the clouds to see if your there. Please continue to watch over us.I sill miss our talks about anything and everything.Your physical prescense is also missed. Wish you were here and Ruby So-Ho. I Love Ya Stephanie"
"Mikie, How's it going? Just wanted you to know I love you and miss you. I guess becaus it's Trick or Treat night one of your favorite nights, I really am having a hard time the last few days. I love you so much and I can't understand why GOD allowed you to go. The only thing this I'm thinking he knew the worst for you was to come true and he took you home. I only wish I could of done something more for you. I would of gladly taken your place no questions asked. We talk about closure since I was a coward I didn't look at you because I din't want to see my perfect baby boy any different. Now I daily live with the fact I let you down and i"m so sorry. I tried to be the best mom you would ever want I love you with all my heart but I guess that wasn't good enough at the end. I'm sorry. Till we meet again your loving mom!!!"
"Michael, As I saw the kids dressed up last night I thought about how much you loved Halloween, among all of your other favorite holidays. I just thought I would pop in and write you a note and tell you I love you and miss you a lot. I know you are watching over all of your loved ones from your cloud. Thanks for watching over me through the past few months since they have been full of one challenge after the other. I hope that things will calm down soon. I was listening to some CDs the other day and when Metallica came on the song "Mama said" made me think of you for some reason. I am sorry if I ever hurt you and I hope you knew just how much I loved (and still do love) you. Please keep watching over everyone you love and I will see you when it is my time to come, no sooner! All My Love till my dying day! AAO S"
"Mike, Just wanted to write and tell you that everything is going ok here. Jon-Michol just turned 10, wow can you believe it?? His is getting big , he stands up to my chin. They have an Asbergers program in PWC now it is the first year, Jon is happy he said" Mommy they are all like me." He was amazed. I'm glad because now he is a class with his peers, he is reading at the 5th grade level and he made the honor roll with his first reportcard. Adin is doing well, finally potty trained and is now being enrolled into the head start program he is anxious to ride the big bus like his bubba Jon-Michol. Abby my youngest is getting big and walking every where, her favorite saying is "Oh Man" lol. All is well with me as can be expected I guess.. Just missing you a whole lot I keep thinking that your gonna pop up like you normally do but then I remember that your up in heaven watching over all the ones that you love and love you. Just know that you are never far from my thoughts and always in my heart. Well I gotta go Adin just found his candy. Till we meet again, Love ya lots, Cyndi"
"My Dearest Michael, I miss you alot especially the day I turned the big 30. I still don't understand why you were taken so soon. I too like Mommy wish Icould have been there more for you. I know that is why I feel so guilty.For you were so very important to me and there are so many feelings that I have for you and were never able to tell.I so wish that I had gotten the oppurtunity to speak them to your face.Time goes bye and still I feel saddend.I hope that you will forgive me for that and other things that happend between us.Well school is almost over just this last wek of my nursing clinicals and the final next Tuesday.Please watch over and guide me through it.I want to graduate next Wednesday and be the best nurse I can be.I can picture you teaching all of the students up in Heaven.They are loving you.For you are bringing your gifts to them and beliving in them.Belive in yourself too. Well I will write more soon.Sorry it's been a little crazy here lately. I Love You Stephanie"
"Hey Boy, I can't believe it's the first of January already. I told Joanie I was going to wake her up at midnight like you used to do but, she said no! I didn't but I was thinking about it, looking back I should have. I know you would. Christmas has come and gone and it's just not the same without you. Even tho you didn't live in this house with us it sure gets lonely here without you and at night or early in the morning when I'm on the computer I still think at any minute you're going to IM me. I miss you so much!! They say the holidays are a hard time for people and I never understood why, until now and it's hard. Everyday is rough it's bad and the hurt just doesn't seem to go away. I love you now and forever. You are and always will be my world. Mom"
"Michael, As you know this week may be very difficult for me so I ask that you and T watch over me. The only thing that makes me feel less pain is knowing that you and all the people I have loved that have gone before me are safe, happy and no longer feel pain. That has helped me live and move on with my life. I will continue to move forward and take steps to improve everyday, so I do NOT live in the past. I miss you and will always love you. See you when it is my time, no sooner. Love always AAO, S"
"Mike, I can not believe that you have been gone for 3 yrs. God it still hurts. I miss you sooo much, you will never know, but I know that your up in heaven looking over us and smiling. I sometimes get the feeling, that I use to get when you would pop up unexpectantly, and then I get all excited,then I remember that your not here anymore, and it makes me sad. I'm sure your ears burn because I talk to you or tell someone about you almost daily. Well another b-day has passed and I know your up there watching and cheering me on, through all the hard times, and I thank you. I feel lucking to have you as one of my special angels. Thank you sooo much for being my friend through thick and thin.. I will always love you and I am looking forward to the day that you meet me at the gates of heaven to welcome me home. Keep watch over Suz she just had a close friend pass away, and watch over Mom and Dad, and RARA and Neldy, that goes with out saying ofcourse. >UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN< Love, Cyndi"
"Mike, Well its turkey day, and I am the one cooking it, lol let's hope it turns out right. Just wanted to drop you a note and say hi, and I miss ya. until we meet again, Cyndi"
"Mike, I look at this memorial page and it seems fewer and fewer people are writing now, I hope it's because their pain of losing is going away some. Just know we all still love you and miss you. The blessed assurance we have is that because you accepted Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior we will one day see you again. I read this beautiful poem and it said if this mother could build a stairway to heaven and bring her son back she would. I ponder that a little while and said no bringing you back to a world of suffering & pain and destruction isn't what I want for my son. I wouldn't want you to leave this world before me but since you did, I'm dealing with it the best way I know how. I want you to know I still have my bad days when I do nothing but cry when I think of you and then I have good days when I can think of all the love and joy you brought into my life. You are truely by far the best thing that I ever had in my life. No matter if you're here physically or not I know you're here for me. Keep my place open baby. I'm hoping to see you soon. I Love You now and always you are the love of my life!"
"Dear Son I am so sorry for not writing sooner, but I have been so busy in my life. I really do miss you and your help. There are days I just wish you were there for me and to give that hand when I needed it. I know that on day you will meet me at the gates to give me that had to show me home and to see Jesus, but God isnt finished with me yet. I have such a hard time keeping on the right path but through his Hope I know that I will do His will. Mike I loe o much and cant stop thinking abt sons when they come on that you must have had omething to do with the words and something thatyou were trying to tell me and Mom. I have never heard such songs about Jesus and the family as I do now. Son I love you and will never forget you. You have touched a part of my life that no one has ever done. I know that you loved Toby and his music and I have grown to love his music also. Well I hope I dont wait this long to write to you again, but you were on my mind and couldnt get you off of it. And your Mom I see wrote you to, Well another year has gone by and Mom and I made it again to our anniversary. We miss you so much and will see you again some day soon. Love your dad and friend forever Dad"
"Dear Son I am so sorry for not writing sooner, but I have been so busy in my life. I really do miss you and your help. There are days I just wish you were there for me and to give that hand when I needed it. I know that on day you will meet me at the gates to give me that had to show me home and to see Jesus, but God isnt finished with me yet. I have such a hard time keeping on the right path but through his Hope I know that I will do His will. Mike I loe o much and cant stop thinking abt sons when they come on that you must have had omething to do with the words and something thatyou were trying to tell me and Mom. I have never heard such songs about Jesus and the family as I do now. Son I love you and will never forget you. You have touched a part of my life that no one has ever done. I know that you loved Toby and his music and I have grown to love his music also. Well I hope I dont wait this long to write to you again, but you were on my mind and couldnt get you off of it. And your Mom I see wrote you to, Well another year has gone by and Mom and I made it again to our anniversary. We miss you so much and will see you again some day soon. Love your dad and friend forever Dad"
"MIke, It's been awhile since I wrote to you. Well everything is alright just had a little girl on the 6th her name is Elizabeth Allyne, she is beautiful and tiny. I am in the process of rebuilding my life, turns out I wasted 4 yrs on an abusive man, I should have realized that he wasn't a child of god and there fore HE would not approve of the relationship. I just wish I knew why I keep going from abuse to abuse, how do they find me?? I miss you so much, I just wish you were here so i could talk to you and get you insight. Well thats all for now TWMA Love cyndi"
"Hey Mike, I'm having another sleepless night so I thought I would pop in and say Hi, and to thank you for your friendship, even with you gone up in heaven I'm sure you still hear me when I talk to you. Adin or Jon Michol will ask me, "mommy who are you talking to??" And I tell them,"My friend Mike." They just look at me like I am out of my mind. I've been talking to you alot lately, I just don't want to bother anyone , I am crying alot and just trying to figure out just what the hell I am going to do. Then I heard this song called Jesus take the wheel and I wish it was that easy, just to say Jesus take the wheel and turn everything over to him. Sorry to unload on you my love. I better go Ellie or lil Betty as your mom likes to call her is waking up TWMA Love ya lots, Cyndi"
"Hey Baby Boy, Wow what a day this has been. We had a guy at church get saved & bapitize today. I guess you know that because I'm sure the angels in Heaven were shouting. I miss you so much. I would of loved to been able to color eggs for you just like we used to. I'll be so glad when I'm with you again days like today are hard on mom it just brings back memories the fun ones but memories just the same. I love you & miss you so much. Take care my baby boy & remember I love you. Mom"
"Hey Sweetie, Wow seems like just yesterday when you Geoff, and I all ran into each other at Denny's aand we talked all night catching up.. And then in a blink of an eye, your gone... I keep asking myself why?? Why you?? Its so hard to think that I won't be running into you any time soon on this earth, and it hurts, it hurts alot.. I know that your up with Jesus and OUR LORD but you are needed so badly down here.. Well its been four long years with out you here, and here I am just thinking back to all our little fights and tiffs that we had that just sound so trivial today.. That back then seemed so important.. And I wonder if you knew just how much I love you.. I mean gosh I compare other guys that I meet and date , kinda sick huh comparing them to my first love who isn't even here anymore.. Well hun watch over your mom and dad(Kenny) and especially watch over Geoff he really needs you.. And of course Neldy and Rara and you lil boys.. I know your their special angel and my they always know how much you love them.. I know that Jon Michol knows cause I tel him all the time that he has a special angel named Mike who watches over him to keep him safe.. Well hun I am going for know.. I'm sorry if this sounds so selfish its just how I feel.. Till We Meet Again Love always Cyndi"
"Hi Mikey! I'm sorry I didnt write yesterday. I was to sad to write. Today is mothers day and I'm a little better. Our little man is cheering me up by making a mess cooking for me. He is all you Mike. He looks and acts just like you all the way. You would be soo proud. I know you must be watching over him, cuz he's gotten himself all banged up and still okay. I'm missing you so much. Life just isn't the same without you and it's still real hard to think that you have been gone four years now. I'm in school to be a dental assist. Go figure! Ive always been a freak about my teeth. So now I get to help others too. The hard part will be, when I get my certifcation for hygentist. Noah is doing okay in school. He really likes his teacher. Ms.Rivers is a really sweet person. I go to Noahs class everyday to help the kids read. So many kids its hard for the teacher and the assistants to help all the kids. Its real fun to see them progress. School lunches still look the same since we were kids. Yuck!! oh yeah, by the way you might want to send some luck to your buddy Jeff Gorden he really is trying this year and he could use a little help. Well, I have to go. I miss you like crazy. I love you always and forever- Mickey"
"Mikie, I can't believe it today would of been your 32nd birthday. Everyone says it will get easier as time goes by. I don't see that happening, even with my strong faith in God. The only thing I have to look forward to is the blessed assurance I will see you again in Heaven. I miss you so much today 32 years ago I celebrated your coming into this world and you made me the happiest mom alive. You were my life and still are. I love Kenny with all my heart but it's not the same. Noah & Avery have a place in my heart but they can't fill the void you have left. Just remember I Love You and will to the day I die, I used to say you are the reason I live now you're the reason I want to die. I can see you & my Jesus. I will wait for the rapture or till God takes me home. Just knowing you'll be there is so comforting. I Love You. Happy Birthday My Beautiful Baby Boy."
"Mike, Hey I just wanted to send you a message to tell you Happy Birthday.. Its hard to believe that youa re really gone.. I love and miss you so much.. Well hugs and kisses , Till we meet again Cyndi"
"Hey Baby Boy, So many people are sad today becuase of September 11th. five years ago and while it was a great tragedy, It to me was no where near the pain I suffered when I lost you. You were and are my world. I love Kenny but you were my reason for Love, Life & Hope my Shining Star and it seems every year that star is just getting dimmer. I miss you so much. Yesterday in church was so bad Mark sing The Cross Made The Difference and I can remember Kenny & I signing that song and just thinking back to the days when the cross in our house made the difference, and how sorry I am that we didn't make that decision sooner. I'm sure things would not of changed because God had a plan, but at least besides love and material things I could of given you a godly home all of your life. I am so sorry for not doing that. I miss you I have really been missing you lately my stomach is in great pains and it's like how it was when you died something is wrong so very wrong. I wish you were here I miss you so much it hurts so bad my friends have their kids to brag on complain about and all I have are my memories of you I want you I love the memories good and bad and I'm thankful for them but sometimes that is just not enough. You were and are My Sunshine but you were taken away from me and my skys are grey becuase you were taken away. Your mom loves you! Today Tomorrow Forever till we meet again you have my heart. Mom"
"Mikie, Merry Christmas Baby Boy!!! I know the angels are signing praises today. I miss you sooo much. It just isn't the same here without you. No matter how much dad trys to be there he's just not you. I've met some wonderful kids your age and they try to fill the void you have left behind and they can't even come close. I said the day you were born you were one of a kind, as you got older I said I'm glad the mold was broken. Noah is like you in his behavior you would of had you're hands full. Mickey has found a guy she is interested in and he seems to do well with Noah at least Noah says he likes him so that's good. I will see that Noah will always know you are his daddy as long as I'm alive your memory will be kept alive also. Till We Meet Again Always & Forever Mom Loves You Mom"
"Hi Mike, Just wanted to say Happy New Year hun. I know that you are up there on your cloud looking over all of us who love you. Till we meet again, Cyndi"
"Hi Mike, Was just thinking of you and thought I would write a quick Hello. I lost you mom's email so I hope that she will see my email here and email me. I am in Nursing School now. I am attending night classes. By next June I will be an LPN. Woohoo about time huh? Well I know your up with OUR LORD looking down on all of us. Just wish you were here on Earth. Will write more later, Love ya lots, TWMA Cyndi"
"Hey Boy Just wanted to say that I still miss you and that I cant wait to see you meet me a the gate. I know that there are a lot of people that are so much like me waiting on that day when we see Jesus and your face.I guess you have seen the truck I bought, it reminds me of you. Mom calls her "butt ugly" but i know if it were yours you would love it. It does have that Redneck flair about it. I told the guy the only way I would buy it is if it were to come with the Rebel flag. Mom & I miss you so much and mom hearts so bad. I know it is so hard on her not having you here with her, but would you ask Jesus to comfort her heart so she doesnt suffer so bad. I know that if I continue to prat to Him that he will answer my prayers, and I know it is in His time, but momma needs to not have her heart hurt so much as it is affecting her health. I dont want her to go but I also dont want to go before her as that would do her in. I dont want it to sound bad, but I want your mom to go before me. I dont want her to have to go thru my death as it has been to much on her already with your leaving here. Well son I love you and will always keep your memories alive and let Noah know who and what you were all about. He is doing so much better now. I hope that you have sent this man to be in his life as the Lord sent me to be in yours. I pray that I have the boldness to share what you gave me in my heart with him to let him know he didnt have to be. I will always remember that day nd that song as it is what showed me more of your love that you always gave me. Love your dad"
"Hi Mike, I have been thinking alot lately and somehow you keep coming to the front of my thinking. I'm not sure why, of course you are never far from my thoughts. But for some reason you keep popping up. I wish I knew why. I read your dad's note to you and I hope that you are watching over your mom, I know that she is just waiting to join you up there but she is so needed down here, just like you were and still are needed. I miss you bud so much. You were the one person that I could really count on to tell me in all honesty if I was doing good or if I was being a idiot and I knew you spoke the truth. LOL bluntly if I may add. Its hard to believe that tomorrow you would of been up there with JESUS for 5 years, 5 YEARS!!!! Gosh that is a long time. Well my friend I know that you up there beside OUR FATHER AND JESUS looking out for all of those who love you and need you. Till We Meet Again, Love Cyndi"
"Mikie, Wow I think this has been the hardest Mother's Day yet. Like Cindi said 5 years and we love you and miss you so much. I do want to be with you it's rough down here. I tried to write a couple of times over the last few days but it was too hard. I decided I had to suck it up and just do it. I know you know I love you but I need to tell you in writing. I try not to break your dad's heart but I hurt so badly for you I have so many good memories and I love to share them and just reflect back on them and you. They were talking about regrets in church the other night and the only big regret I was thinking is I didn't go first, but if you had to hurt as much as I do then maybe it's better this way. Dad is right I couldn't make it without him it's hard without you. Our God is a meriful god and I know he wouldn't make me suffer losing you both. Uncle isn't do so well so you and Mommy Ethel say a little prayer for him. We know it's God's will but put in a good word will you? So far you're doing super with Ry-Ry & NeeNee he misses you that's for sure we all do, he likes to do the Mikie thing remember when and tells a story about you and just laughs, usually about you and school and going to sleep and you couldn't remember the way and Hardee's those two are his favorite. I'll close for now remember I love you and you're always in my heart and you'll always be my baby boy to the last breath I breathe. Till we meet on your side all my love, Mom"
"HI MIKE- IM SORRY I HAVENT WRITTEN IN SO LONG. I HAVE BEEN BUSY WITH NOAH AND OTHER THINGS. I JUST WANTED TO TELL YOU WHAT YOU ALREADY KNOW. I'VE FOUND SOMEONE SWEET AND NICE. HE LOVES NOAH AND ME SO MUCH. I JUST KNOW YOU MAY HAVE SENT HIM TO LOVE US. I'VE ASKED YOU SO MANY TIMES TO HELP ME FIND SOMEONE SPECIAL AS YOU WERE TO US. HE LOVES US SO MUCH HE IS GOING TO MARRY ME IN AUGUST. I MISS YOU SO MUCH. I CANT BELIVE ITS BEEN FIVE YEARS ALREADY. HOW IS AUDREY? I JUST KNOW YOU SPEND EVERY MOMENT YOU CAN WITH HER. YOU LOVED HER SO MUCH. I KNOW YOUR SAFE AND ONE DAY WILL SEE YOU. TAKE CARE AND I LOVE YOU. HUGS AND KISSES- MICKEY"
"Hey Baby Boy, Wow it's already into August. Another year has gone by and again no Mikie to celebrate the day you were born. I miss you so much. Ry Ry was really sick and I thought there for awhile we were going to lose him too. As I get older the lost of you gets harder and harder, I wish God would call his children home, I know he's waiting for the last of them to get saved but I'm ready. Our little Noah was so cut at the wedding he reminded me so much of you a butterfly was flying around and he was watching that and not paying attention to the wedding he was in. Then he said "I want to take off this costume it's cramping my style" He's so adorable! He's getting so big and handsome just like his daddy you would be proud of him!! He's so you. I miss you so very much We've had to do so much for Ry Ry lately and I know it's taken a toll on Kenny and all but he doesn't understand five years ago my heart broke I was devastated with losing you. Only someone that has given birth can really understand and I didn't want to lose my dad too. Nee Nee had gotten very violent and it was rough going she's better now. I fought I would lose my mind. I know you think I did a long time ago. Well I'll close for now just want to write and say I love you and miss you. You're In My heart & Soul, Mom"
"Mike, As you know RY RY just had a pace maker put in on Monday. Please I know you are already there but pay extra attention to him.. Neldie needs him so much. Watch over your mom and Kenny. Also watch over Geoff he still is having a hard time with losing you. Love always, Till we meet again. Cyndi"
"Mike- Just dropping a few lines to say hi and I miss you. I have gotten married on August 4th to Justin. He loves Noah so much. He is trying to make sure Noah is happy and loved. Rhy Rhy is sick and I hope God doesnt take him. Nell needs him and Your mom really isnt ready for him to go. Watch over us and keep us safe. Missing you always.Hugs and Kisses- Mickey"
"Hey, Well I know you know there's not a day that goes bye that you're not thought of, But I know tonight you would be out there doing your hunting for items on the list. I was telling someone the other day about that some of the things you brought home was something else. Tonight I'm sure someone else kids will be doing the same and I'm sure Noah when he grows older will too. You would be proud of him he's come a long way. He's is a miniature you if there ever was one. Mickey & Justin have thier hands full that is for sure. I want you to know one thing as adorable as he is he will never take your place in my heart or soul or life, You are and were my life it seems the passing of every year is getting harder and harder instead of easier. The world is a wicked one so much violence and hate I can only imagine what God must think of his children. I know his love for us is unconditional as mine was for you and I'm happy to say you didn't do all bad. I love you and just wanted you to know I'll be thinking of you tonight @ 9:00 I'll stop what I'm doing and say a little prayer in remembrance of you. You know all of us miss you and those of us that are Saved will see you again. Remember I love you, miss you and think of you daily. All My Love Forever & Ever your Mommy I'll be. Mom"
"Hey, Just wanted to check in with you and say Hi! I know people myself included don't write as often as we should, but I know you know our hearts and our love for you never changes. A lot has been going on down here. I am sure God is hearing a lot more prayers for people some from people I'm sure he hasn't heard from in awhile but at least they are praying my prayer for with Ry Ry being so sick if God is going to take Ry Ry he doesn't let him suffer and that your Nee Nee doesn't know or hurt from it. She used to ask about you so much, she knew you weren't there but we couldn't explain why. I don't question God and what he has in store for us I often wonder what & sometimes why. I know to the unsaved person this doesn't make sense but I know you understand and it helps me deal better writing to you. It's not the same as you being here that's for sure but I can real your presence when i'm at my lowest I know you're there to help me, I'm not sure what I would do without you and Kenny at my side. It sucks being daddy's little girl and now I'm going to lose him and having a momma's boy and already losing you. I'm going to stop writing for today but wanted you to know how very much I love you, Forever & Always, Mom"
"Hi Mike, Well Happy New Year first off.. Tell Ry Ry to behave up there.. I hope he gave you that kick in the behind and a big huge hug from me. You are sorely missed down here, there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of you.... Jon is doing well, he is my angel-devious child.. I sure do have my hands full with him. Man, can you believe that he is 13?!?!?! I saw a picture of your Noah at Ry Ry's wake, nah he doesn't look a thing like you!! Joking!! You could not deny that boy, as if you would ever want to.. Things are ok here just raising my little ones and going to school along with working.. Its hard to catch my breath sometimes.. I graduate in June with my LPN.. Hard to believe!! Well thats my update.. Just wanted to touch base with you.. Give my Love to RY RY.. Watch over Neldie!! Also Mom and daddy Kenny.... I love you and miss you!! Till we meet again!! Cyndi"
"Hi Mike- Im just dropping a short note to say Hi. Noah is doing awesome in school. He is getting bigger and bigger by the day. He is without a doubt, just like you. His attitude and the way he loves comics and Nascar. He is something else. Im doing okay too. Its hard with a new little one. Well, I have to go Justice is calling me. :) Hugs and kisses- Mickey"
"Hey Mike, Just stopping by now that I have a little bit of my breath back. I'm graduating with my LPN on nov 14th. Yeah a Lil late but who is counting.. Well just wanted to say I love ya and miss ya alot!! Till we meet a again.. Cyn"
"Mikie, It has been a long time since I have written to you. I just want you to know there is not a day that goes by that I do not think about you. I was laid off from work on Friday so...I need to find a job. I really miss you & Ry Ry. Life has not been the same without the two of you. I have gone back to college to get a degree in Sociology so I can make a difference in someone's life to overcome their addictions or help the mentally challenged people. I know this would have been something you would have done and I want you to be as proud of me as I was of you. Poor Kenny has so much on his plate now. I do not think I help much (do not make any smart comments) Noah is doing so well he is so much like you in everyway. I know he will turn out to be as loving and sweet as you my baby boy are. Neldy has her good days and then she has bad ones. Her caregiver is very good to her so she is being very well taken care of. Until I See You Again All My Love Forever & Always Your Mommy I will Be. Love You, Mom"
"Dear Son I just wanted to say that I miss you. I think and speak of you almost every day to some one. Your death has become a witness tool for me, as those that ask about my tattoo. Yes your dad using a tattoo for GOD. I love you and miss you so much, and your mom she does too. I hope you are taking care of Ry Ry as mom and I miss him. Your mom means so much to me and I feel I have failed her. My prayer is that God will see us through our troubles now and not let us loose what we have. I pray that Gods will, will be done. I am sorry that I have not written lately as I should have but have been busy with my new job. I have gone into law enforcement, as I had always wanted to. You are as proud of your mom as I am since she started back to school. She is doing very well in her classes and I pray that she will get to do what she wants when she is done or while she is taking her classes. Mikee, if you can speak with our Lord and put in a good word for us, please do so. Mom needs the job that Jesus would have her to have. She wants to continue to do Gods work as she tries to every day. We do not want to loose what we have worked so hard for, but if it Gods will then we will accept what he gives us. Well son I love you, and when the trumpets sound, we are ready. Until the next time and I promise, it will not be this long again. Love your dad Kenny"
"Michael, I haven't written in soooo long.I aplogize.However I talk to you and about you ALOT!!! I finally left Kevin's Dad and am starting a new life for us. I miss you and love you much.Living back here reminds me of you.Sometimes well alot of times your death haunts me I wish that I had had more time with you,tell you how important you were in my life. You have definatley marked your place in me forever.I try to not cry alot about your death but,again there is so much to say.Your picture looks at me as I write.Keep Ra,Ra company for me as I was saddend to hear of his death sometime ago. Remember RUBYSOHO!!! I miss and love you lots and I promiss to write more often.ALL MY LOVE,Stephanie-Snuffnee"
"Michael, I wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of you today well as you know that's everyday but I wanted to write.There is so much I want to say I long to hear your voice.I wonder sometimes okay alot of times did I fail you? Was I to blame for the pain that you were having? I definatley feel like I failed you.I ache for that. I try not to let myself feel that way but there is no closure. Working on something that will bring me a little peace hopefully. Anyways I hope all is good up there and give my love to all my loved ones including yourself and RA-RA.I so miss you. I LOVE YA Stephanie"